new blog

attention everyone....... i've got a new blog at www.xanga.com/elean0r . please relink me okay? thanks!

mental notes made on Friday, February 17, 2006 06:28 p.m.

pitas was down down down

yup, the server was down so i couldn't blog =( but i set up a new bloggie blog blog while waiting for pitas to come back into action... here is the webby.

mental notes made on Sunday, February 5, 2006 02:04 p.m.

what does love mean?

"When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn't bend over and paint her toenails anymore. So my grandfather does it for her all the time, even when his hands got arthritis too. That's love."
Rebecca - age 8

"When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different. You know that your name is safe in their mouth."
Billy - age 4

"Love is when a girl puts on perfume and a boy puts on shaving cologne and they go out and smell each other."
Karl - age 5

"Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of your French fries without making them give you any of theirs."
Chrissy - age 6

"Love is what makes you smile when you're tired."
Terri - age 4

"Love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes a sip before giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK."
Danny - age 7

"Love is what's in the room with you at Christmas if you stop opening presents and listen."
Bobby - age 5

"If you want to learn to love better, you should start with a friend whom you hate."
Nikka - age 6

"There are two kinds of love. Our love. God's love. But God makes both kinds of them."
Jenny - age 4

"Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it everyday."
Noelle - age 7

"Love is like a little old woman and a little old man who are still friends even after they know each other so well."
Tommy - age 6

"My mommy loves me more than anybody. You don't see anyone else kissing me to sleep at night."
Clare - Age 5

"Love is when mommy gives daddy the best piece of chicken."
Elaine - age 5

"Love is when mommy sees daddy smelly and sweaty and still says he is handsomer than Robert Redford."
Chris - age 8

"Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone all day."
Mary Ann - age 4

"I know my older sister loves me because she gives me all her old clothes and has to go out and buy new ones."
Lauren - age 4

"I let my big sister pick on me because my Mom says she only picks on me because she loves me. So I pick on my baby sister because I love her."
Bethany - age 4

"When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and little stars come out of you."
Karen - age 7

"Love is when mommy sees daddy on the toilet and she doesn't think it's gross."
Mark - age 6

"You really shouldn't say 'I love you' unless you mean it. But if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People forget."
Jessica - age 8

mental notes made on Sunday, January 22, 2006 12:40 p.m.

i can't smile without you...

this is so cute.

click this way.

mental notes made on Tuesday, January 17, 2006 08:27 p.m.

home sweet home

daddy just bought a new house, its gonna be ready in 3 years time. hee... then we'll buy furniture and stuff and move in. then after that we'll renovate our 10 serenade walk while we live in the new house. =) happy.. the new house is really very nice. VERY. no other word can describe it. i have never dreamt of living in such a beautiful building before. heehee.... so exciting. 3 years is a long time, but i guess i can wait.

right now this old house is deteriorating. first when i still lived in my room upstairs, the ceiling was leaking on me because of the faulty heater. then i moved to sleep downstairs and "renovated" the room. the heater was fixed but after that, the ceiling downstairs underneath the bathroom connecting roy's and dawn's [[my old room]] room is leaking. that means that our kitchen has a leaky ceiling. sigh... water water everywhere. then after that dawn's air-conditioning spoilt so she came to sleep in my room downstairs with me. then after it was fixed roy's room air con spoilt. so he came to sleep with me. now that everything is fixed and we have only 1 usable bathroom left, dad's aircon started leaking. hahaha... time for a new house!! in 3 years time. 3 more years of rain indoors.

went to see the models of the new house now and its really very beautiful. its a private kind of terrace estate, like a condo, but houses, not "flats". and dad bought the unit with the swimming pool. we now will have a swimming pool!!! and we have a basement and a roof garden where we can have bbqs and stuff. there are 5 rooms including the master bedroom and the master bedroom has a walk in wardrobe. there are all together 5 storeys in the house and we have our own private lift!! elevator in the house!!!! no more running up and down the staircase. heeheehee... i feel so lazy. but if we have a lift, we need to make full use of it man!! though i think our electricity bills would go up.

okay enough of this, i won't be living there until 3 years later, minimum! for now, i gotta study chem. excited!!!! this will be my first memory of moving.

mental notes made on Monday, January 16, 2006 10:55 p.m.

lost

i have just lost another pen. ahh!!! so irritating. i'm sorry... can't help but feel a bit irritated. since the start of the year i have loaned people 2 pencils and 2 pens and i have lost all of those. kinda irritating after i lost so many. the first was still okay but this is too much. its almost costing me $10!!! argh.... i shall label all my good pens from now on... when i'm free i mean. then i hope i won't lose anymore stuff.

mental notes made on Tuesday, January 10, 2006 05:51 p.m.

orientation one

woohoo... orientation is over and school is back again.. hahaha... i heard that our disco night was a blast! yay! too bad i didn't get to go... was busy in the canteen stressing the dear aunties because they were cooking too slowly and our poor JC1s didn't have dinner on time. i heard joan was dancing and shouting so much she lost her voice!! hahaha... hilarious... wish i had time up there though... it would have been so much fun.

day one of the orientation miss chiew gave us a score to help us see where we can improve. and she gave us a 60%. kinda disappointing... considering we put in so much hard work. day 2 we got 75%. yay! day 3 we got 85% and day 4..... [[drumroll]] 95%!!! [[symbols and gongs ringing]] thank you thank you thank you!! my council rocks. hahaha... i'm really glad everything pulled through.

we went to sentosa on the third day, and MJC was there. hmm.... clashed with them a bit. but it was the OGs, not us. and we tried to make friends with the MJcians.... we cheered for them and say to them "MJ, have a nice day!" but they boo-ed us!! arhhh!! so mean and i'm so hurt and cross and annoyed and irritated and frustrated. you get the picture.

went out with piggy that day to help him look for chinese new year clothes. i didn't know guys can be SOOOO picky. oh man oh man... just for a pair of pants he walked up and down and up and down bugis street. sigh... still says he's not good at shopping... he's like, a super shopper lar! asked him to try a green shirt but he stubbornly refused. gah! green shirts are not gay! guys have weird thinking, i'll never understand.

amanda went back to nz on saturday... i was so sad... i really wished i wasn't so busy, would have loved to spend more time with her. oh well, i guess we'll meet each other again soon.. this year end i hope... i miss all the times we had together, since we were kids til now. we're like, childhood buddies... all of us. the bond between cousins will never end yo... heehee... oh yeah, i think that's my new fav word. yo.

mental notes made on Monday, January 9, 2006 04:01 p.m.

new year

i have decided that i will have no new year resolution. wahaha... thank you. going to be very busy these few days... grr!!!!! i wanna rest!!! please.........

papa's been busy these few days too... made a log of the CDs we have at home. so many VCDs and DVDs... 230 altogether. and he put them in alphabetical order. woohooo!! my papa rocks! he almost went to school the other day to scold the principal because i've been so busy and had no time to rest. even got sick. hmm... so farnie. then when i knew he was coming to school i rushed home that afternoon to show him that i don't stay in school the whole day. you know we almost got locked in school because it was so late? did the banner thing until almost 10pm. woah... in school so late you know! council is super hardworking.

amanda is going back to NZ soon... so sad =( we haven't had enough time together yet!!! haha.. and her luggage is getting too full for anymore things. gotta get my parents to bring it over to nz for her next year. oh yeah, my parents are going on a honey moon again. AGAIN. sigh... poor us... gotta fend for ourselves. hope roy gets his driving license on his first try, then i don't have to go to school by myself.. heehee... "gor gor fetch me.."

i feel as though i'm missing so much. you know, when i first got the sec 3 streaming results in ang mo kio sec, i was so lonely in class. i had no good friends with me, so miserable! even in my banded classes, math and english. then things got better and in nanyang jc, yixuan and shinye were with me. phew.... not alone anymore. but now with the sc being so busy, i hardly have time with my class. =( its like i'm going to be lonely again when school reopens because i haven't been in touch with them for so long... sigh... i hope 2006 promises to be a good year to me. heehee...

mental notes made on Saturday, December 31, 2005 05:28 p.m.

tanjong beach!

went with piggy to sentosa..... i got a new necklace =) it was a happy day, felt like i was on top of the world. christmas is really the best celebration of the year. Jesus is the reason for the season!

mental notes made on Tuesday, December 27, 2005 11:07 p.m.

blogging

hello everyone......... i was back in school again today for council stuff... haha... protocol briefing. you know i thought i was gonna be really late because it was already 12.24pm and i was still having lunch with mama, papa and gor at Jalan Leban and i was supposed to be in school in room 562 at 1pm! ahh.... the worst thing was that the pasta mom ordered for me for lunch had so much chili inside i had to eat it slowly. hahaha..... but after trying to rush through my lunc mama sped through the traffic and i reached school at like 1.04pm. phew.... wasn't that late. then when i reached i was actually earlier than some people. hahaha... zhiming told me "jinfa says 1.30pm then start.." i was like, "grrr....." rushed through my pasta for nothing! well nevermind... its sitting happily in my tummy now. hahaha.....

i missed going for council stuff.... used to see all of them almost everyday and suddenly when i haven't seen them for a week it feels like it was almost too long. and phang cunzheng was saying that i seldom go eat dinner with them. aiyah.... cannot lar.... my mama cooked my favourite prawns. heehee... hungry.... i can't believe what first impressions do to a person, but i really remember not having a very good impression of cunzheng.. especially when he was always skipping my dance practices during this year's chinese new year. haha... but i found that he was a rather good friend to have =) and swee wei is right.... i think i always can't go to have dinner with you guys because i'm either busy with my family or with... ahem. heehee... well... those people are important people in my life. and i do feel like a very lucky girl.

the christmas celebrations at home this christmas were also very entertaining.... courtersy of me, dawn and manda. gosh..... i'll have to talk about that another time. so busy with council stuff now..... just finished my proposal. candice will have it in her email soon. haven't done a proposal in a long time... digging up all the old files in the computer. hee... oh and one more thing before i end this entry..... we've got a REAL CHRISTMAS TREE AT HOME!! heehee... coming home everyday to that fresh pine scent is so cool.

mental notes made on Tuesday, December 27, 2005 10:44 p.m.

merry christmas!

hey guys... check this out =)

mental notes made on Saturday, December 24, 2005 11:59 p.m.

not feeling well

hey everyone... i'm not feeling well. =( doctor says if i still don't feel well after 2 days i'll have to get ready to go to the hospital. yuck... i hope i get better soon.

btw, here's a reminder:
all members of class 4/1 2004, we're having a class christmas party on the 22nd December at Rio Vista, 32 upper serangoon view. that's yixuan's estate's function room. it starts at 5pm and i've catered food so if you are free PLEASE COME okay? we haven't had a proper class gathering yet this year so i hope we can all make this happen. and also, bring $12. we're gonna have fun! see you there!!

mental notes made on Sunday, December 18, 2005 11:57 a.m.

Timor Leste

hey guys.. i'm back!!! yay... the trip was wonderful!! er.. even though i started the trip on 6th dec, i journalled from the 8th, the first part of the journal is with ee li so i'll type that out for you guys another day okay?

here's the journal.

8th Dec
today we travelled a lot. 6 hours on a small little bus. regretted sleeping a lot on the way but travelling long distances makes me sleepy. some more i took motion sicknes pills [[aka sleeping pills]]. but the scenery as we travelled up the hills was magnificent!! the beach... ahh.... the mountains.... ahh... driving by the edge of the cliffs... well.... AHH!!!

along the way we also saw straw houses with leaf roofs and little village communities. very interesting so see the little cluster of simple houses built in the middle of nature. we stopped in the middle of this bridge called Nunura brigde, somewhere close to the border of west and east Timor. the bridge was over no water, below us were just rocks and stones, barren dry land. and we prayed for God's revival to come into the land, for living waters to flood the dry river banks now. then we continued on our journey up the mountains to Bobonaro!

the place we stayed in was a small simple, rather dusty, building that looks as though it has been through as much as the people who live near it. it was the subdistrict administrator's office building, one storey-ed with 3 main rooms and 4 other small rooms. it's light's out now as i'm writing, light's out as in there is no more electricity for the night and its almost pitch black. i'm writing in the dark because my torchlight attracts a lot of moths and water bugs, very irritating. this is the first time i'm sleeping in a sleeping bag... kinda cosy inside =) but the floor is dusty, hard and cold.

we met the villagers, i was really sad. i wanted to talk to them, but i could only speak a little tetum. argh... i wish there was a universal language that everyone understands. i'm still shy amongst the strangers, hope tomorrow will be better.

bathed with Su-Fern today, i was really glad for the company. the toilet had no lights and it was dark, dirty and smelly. the water is extremely cold. brrr... thank God for Sufs. thank God for sisters.

9th Dec
i didn't sleep well last night.. the bugs were REALLY irritating me. and funnily, i felt really warm and hot in my sleeping bag. i woke up a few things and wondered if my eyes were really open because it was so dark that when i closed my eyes and when i opened my eyes it was the same. i turned to Ingrid to look at the window to see if i could see the sky. thank God i could.. i knew i wasn't blind. there were so many stars! they looked like little mist condense clouds in the dark blackbaord sky when i didn't have my specs on.

we did the chicken dance at the school today. it was really fun and we laughed and laughed with them. we played volleyball with the school team today. and we got totally trashed, both guys and girls. phew... but it was a wonderful day. we drove to the school on an open truck and i think i bumped my butt so much i haven't got a butt left. we sang as we drove and greeted "bondia!" to anyone we saw. we also drove through some clouds as we were on the mountain side! it was amazing.

after lunch, we took a long hike to visit a village in the mountains. it was really fun, we saw little streams [[got my muddy shoes wet]], provision huts [[made of dried straw and leaves]] and of course, a lot of goats and cows. i walked with ee li almost all the way. yay!! haha.. another really wonderful sister. it rained a lot along the way and the muddy rocky road made everything slippery. so many of us fell down along the way, even Victor our team leader. we sang to the villagers of Ai-assa. when we were there the young people walked around with parangs in their hands, and there was such a spirit of fear and anger in the place. we prayed for them but i really wished we could do more for them. we had to rush back because it was getting dark and we would have no lights. we hugged the old women and they almost cried, as if no one has showed them love before. i hope wave 2 is going to do something for these broken people.

when we got back, me, eeli and sufs bathed together. haha...

10th Dec
slept better last night. yay! finally... woke up when the sun was just rising so it was rather bright. it was about 6am. could see my fingers!! as we drove out of our office house, there was a multitude of people walking around the little roads of Bobonaro! women had baskets balanced on their heads as they walked around the crowded streets, men had their horses loaded with goods. it was market day!! everyone on the mountains gathered at bobonaro to sell their goods today. it was so interesting! but we couldn't stay for it, we had to go visit another school.

as we drove along, the roads became empty and i saw sparrows flying along the hills. then God spoke to me saying, look. i even provide for the sparrows, what more will i provide for my people in east timor? i was so amazed when i heard the thought, and even more amazed when i found out it was a bible verse. Matthew 6:26 God is our provider. He blessed me to be a blessing. for your info, you hardly see birds in the mountains of east timor, and the sparrows were just such a sign of God's love and mercy.

after lunch, we played telematches with the children in the nearby church. me and sufs talked and played with nony and arti, eeli was resting back at the office house, she wasn't feeling well.

when we came back, we saw peter looking rather distressed and he was very quiet. later we found out that it was because he met a little boy who had lost a finger!!! eeeeeeee..... the little boy lost his finger when he was playing with his brothers, it accidentally got chopped off by a parang and he couldn't find it. this happened one week ago and the finger stub was just bleeding and wrapped in a hankerchief. ming yang carried the poor boy to the hospital to get it treated because it looked really infected. the nurse unwrapped the hankerchief and saw some bone protruding out without any flesh around it. she used a pair of twizzers to scrape off the infection and applied some cream and bandaged up the wound. the through all this the boy didn't cry at all!!! so amazing. i guess the parents didn't bring him to the hospital because the bills would just be too much a strain on the finances. to prefer letting your child lose a finger than spending the money to at least properly bandage up the wound is something i really don't understand. la komprede. poverty is scary.

11th Dec
the guys played soccer today. in the clouds. i got sick today... my throat is really sore. we gave out sweets to the children today and they followed us back to our office house and packed into our balcony. they didn't want to leave so we sang sunday school songs for them and dances and did some action songs. even though they didn't know what we were saying, i think God spoke to them anyway. we saw nony again =) kinda like an old friend now.

prepared for celebration night. the night was fun!! they didn't know the rasa sayang song actions and halfway through they screwed up. then Vic said, "where's Cleo?? ask her to come in front and dance!!" ahh!! sabo me!!! i choreograph for you all to dance then you ask me to stand in front and dance... grr... but i liked performing. heehee.. the bobonaro youth performed for us too... specially for us. but it was so late at night, so our audience were all grown men except the youth who performed for us. i guess it is because its so dark at night and they have no electricity to walk home. oh no... the youths didn't have any light to talk home too. and some of them were girls! we gave them some J21 torchlights to help them, i hope they reached home safely.

at night keith was being irritating and told us the green ping pong ball joke. grrr... hahaha... but it was so funny. my throat is terrible now. i think i really need some rest. can't talk.

12th Dec
last day in bobonaro. woah, today my throat was the ultimate! PAIN!

packed and got ready to travel to Dili again. took a lot of silly pictures with our nearby living quarters. haha... we didn't see nony and arti today... kinda sad we didn't get to say goodbye.

met the other teams on the way back and the heat was just really intense sufs got a headache. the poor other teams living in maliana and balibo.

the maliana preying mantis visited us on the bus. it was bigger than the size of my palm and clinging to the ceiling above me in the bus. yikes! Jun got rid of it. and the maliana toilet had no place for you to pee. you just had to do it on the floor and flush it away with water. the balibo toilet was the worst! it clogged everyday and someone had to dig the shit out of the septic tank with his hands. the worst part was when he found out the gloves he was using had holes. yuck... and in both places they had to draw their own water. i'm glad we got a tap that worked on and off.

slept in the bus a lot again. saw a lot of cows and goats and children on the way back. i saw water buffaloes! they were grey and really skinny with big horns. everything in Timor is skinny.

when we reached Dili, we went to the tais market and bought tais and stuff before going back to Hotel 2001. we had a good dinner at the seafood resturant. i had lemon butter prawns with rice and salad. and they gave me 10 BIG Prawns! i think it might be better than fish and co.! so yummy... heehee... then we had sharing and debrief and affrimations til 2am. slept so late, but the encouragements were awesome =)

13th Dec
we're going to go home today. i think the shopaholic in me is telling me i need to buy more stuff for the people back home. ahh... so farnie. we chiong-ed down to the market again and choinged back in just 45mins. hahaha... zoomed to the shop and bought stuffs for the "3 pairs of sister chromatids" back home. hahaha... so farnie.

when we arrived back at the airport, it was so embarassing!! there were so many people waiting to pick all the trippers up, all the anxious parents or relatives. hmmm... went home and scrubbed myself well before sleeping early, i still feel sick =(

mental notes made on Wednesday, December 14, 2005 10:25 a.m.

leaving on a jet plane

yes everyone.. i'm leaving on a jet plane for 8 days, and i'll be back on tuesday 13 dec =) don't anyone dare try and make me go away for good. muahahaha... i love singapore!!

so anyway, i'm so sorry you guys, leaving a lot of things behind. hmm.. but i think i'm going to have a lot of fun amidst all the hard work okay? yay yay yay.. hope i can sleep tonight.

to everyone in 4/1: the date of the christmas party for 4/1 2004 has been changed to... [[drumroll]] 22 December!!! i can imagine ryan rejoicing. hahaha... its going to be at the function room in the estate yixuan is living in.

to yixuan: hey choy helped me book your function room, so on that day you've gotta help me sign in okay? thank you!!

to kah hui: hey man, eric sent me this email regarding the council dance. "worry not, under your captable teachings, i've memorized the dance steps. =D and why am i not paired with candiceeee. hee hee. " so i think you know what to do.

okay, byebye everyone, except those who are going to see me at 8.20am tomorrow at the airport =)

mental notes made on Monday, December 5, 2005 06:07 p.m.

posts

chihoe: i really don't know anything about the class blog. no one told me the password or the addresss and stuff... and i think not many people know about it either... erm... when the details are confirmed i'll send out messages to everyone. maybe invitations through christmas cards =) i wanna send some cards this year too. and yup, mrs chung and mdm tong needs our help for next year's carnival/walkaton. mdm tong also says she sends you her regards =)

bryan: oei!!! i also never talk to you for so long le!!! grr.... i can't go for cell today also because i have a mission trip team meeting... ahh!! so i guess i'll only see you after my trip. hmm... must update me of the things back at cell when i come back okay? And keep us all trippers in prayer. okay???? take care brother.

ryan: hey ryan... i'm trying to confirm the details of the party... seems like joseph can't book his function room and yixuan's function room is also not free. so... maybe we'll change the date? hahaha... anything for 4/1 man... if not you split yourself between the 2 parties lar. hahaha... kidding. now that you're so popular... remember us too okay?

mel: melisssa fu!!! please please please help lester and shaoxun with the planning because i won't be around from the 6th to the 13th dec and when i come back i'll be really busy with council work. okay????? i know you've always been a really reliable person, so i'm counting on you =) go check out with lester or shaoxun about the details, i was discussing with them about the party not too long ago.

yay... okay all my replies are done. woohoo.. going to keith and alina's house now =)

mental notes made on Saturday, December 3, 2005 10:22 a.m.

Jesus hadomi ita

i believe that none of us are blessed for no reason. i believe we were all blessed to be a blessing to others. i want to reach out to the nations, i want Your light to shine through me, to shine into the windows of each heart, and of every soul.

Let us see on earth
the glory of Your Son
Let me be the one
that You'd use in Your plan

Bring the nations to Your side
let the kingdoms join in shouts of praise
let me be the one who bring
the one who brings Your love.

mental notes made on Saturday, December 3, 2005 10:08 a.m.

4/1 CHRISTMAS GATHERING

hey all you members of class 4/1, we are going to have a gathering for christmas on the 23rd December 2005, Friday. this is not confirmed but we'll most probably meet at joseph's house at 5pm at the function room and cater food, each person about $8 for a 7 course dinner with desert from Four Seasons hotel. and we're also having a gift exchange... minimum $5? about there... no one would want a $2 gift of like... toilet paper. so yeah.... unconfirmed details but i really hope you guys would keep the date free.

remember... 23rd December 2005, Friday.

mental notes made on Wednesday, November 30, 2005 12:34 a.m.

forgiven

ahhh... can't help but forgive him.... hahaha...

okay so we're okay now. you know just after i forgave him he made me irritated again. sigh... what can i do? forgive and forgive... i'm a nice person =) [[swallows laughter]]

so anyway, council chalet was kinda... nice... but the free time we were given by the teachers wasn't really a lot, almost all the best times the teachers took. nevermind, i think i had a good time anyway [[grins]] but basically i blogged to tell everyone that i'm not angry at Shawn anymore. see? i even wrote his name with the caps in front. haha... oh if you do'nt know, Shawn=Jin Fa. yup... we're cool.

mental notes made on Thursday, November 24, 2005 11:09 p.m.

the irritating boy

today i wasted $10 because of cab fares. today, i realised that there was another time i was late for a meeting because i shared a cab with this same irritating boy, and he didn't even pay his half of the share. and because the cab driver dropped him first that time, we made an incredibly big detour and the fee was like, $4 more than what it was supposed to be. because of this detour, i also ran into a traffic jam and ERP. and today, because of this same irritating boy, i took a cab from school to home, and home back to school, because i wanted to hand in my NYAA book to him, which he said he wanted to collect. and i was afraid that i would create trouble for him because i forgot to bring it to school today. and so i kindly decided to go home and get it so that it would not be mah fun for him. and guess what? when i was huffing and puffing when i finally rushed back to school, this boy told me that he decided not to collect it in the end.

please! i thought you were my friend, at least tell me so that i didn't spend so much money and time travelling up and down. and when i told you i was so angry and irritated you didn't even apologise. you think that good-natured me can always help you out and tolerate all this nonsense? well no. i can't. and i don't think i want to be your friend anymore.

mental notes made on Monday, November 21, 2005 07:08 p.m.

chance

yesterday i watched part of a movie on HBO and it was hilarious.. it made me think quite a bit.

the story had this girl character in it, i think her name was Polly. so anyway, the beginning [[or where i started to watch]] was in the city, and there were weird machines chasing this aeroplane that Polly was in. Polly's driver [[let's call him Jack]] was talking to someone over the radio, one of his good friends Dex. i think they were trying to find out why the city was being attacked by those weird machines. a transmission signal was coming from one of the flying machines and Jack was chasing it furiously to help Dex locate the source of all the nonsense machines. so anyway, in the end Dex was kidnapped but he secretly left them a note to say where he was being taken to because he uncoded the transmission and found where it was coming from.

so Jack set off to save his friend Dex and Polly wanted to come along because she was interested and wanted to know the story. she brought along this camera so she could take pictures of the things she saw when she was on this adventure to save Dex. but because of an explosion [[set off by the enemy controlling the machines]] when they were in a uranium mine, she lost all the extra film she had and her camera could only take 2 more picures!

along the way she saw a lot of amazing things, like aeroplanes that could dive into the water, a floating airport... but she wouldn't take a picture because she always believed that there would be something more worthy of the 2 pictures left that she could take. so everytime she saw something new and amazing, she would hesitate for a moment, take off the lens cap, then put it back and walk away without taking a picture.

finally, Jack and Polly reached the island where the bad guy's lair was. but on the island, Jack and Polly were chased by machines that were meant to protect the bad guy's secret hide out. so they ran away from the machines to a deadend, a cliff!! they ran til they found this tree that had fallen to create a makeshift bridge across the deadly valley. so they ran across the tree, but halfway through, a machine stooped down so close to them that they ducked down and lay flat on the tree bark. and when Polly fell to the ground [[or the bark of the tree]], she accidentally took a picture of the ground! hahaha... it was so funny! and she was SO sad... she only had 1 picture left that she could take and she decided that she would save it for the end of the story so that her pictures would have a conclusion.

after all that running, they got into the bad guy's lair where they found out that the bad guy had build an ark that would carry 2 of each animal on earth to another planet because he was not happy with the world he was living on. the ark was a huge shiny rocket ship that would carry all the animals to another planet. and they had to stop this bad guy because once the rocket leaves the earth's atmosphere, the earth would incinerate and everything left of it would die!

so in the end, [[to cut a long story short]] the both of them saved the animals on the space ship and ultimately saved the whole world. and then, Polly decided to take her last photograph to end her journey. so she scanned the surroundings peering through the lens of the camera for the best view of everything. and finally, she scanned it to Jack's handsome face and when he looked at the camera, she took a picture =) but Jack looked very shocked.

and Polly said "its okay, Jack. You don't have to say anything."
and she thought she was doing the right thing to take a picture of the man that bought her on her adventure and saved her everytime something bad happened. i'll bet she was in love with him and he was in love with her.
then Jack shook his head and said "lens cap."

lol!! Polly kept the precious film until the last moment and in the end she didn't even get a good picture except the back of the lens cap! hahahaha... it was hilarious. but it made me think... maybe sometimes we save things for the very end because we think that there's something better that would come our way, but the end may turn out to be something that wasn't anything special at all.. maybe sometimes it would be good to just think that everything that came our way is the best that we would ever get and treasure every moment. no one can see the future... perhaps living for the moment would be good advice =)

mental notes made on Saturday, September 7, 2002 12:21 a.m.

outing!

haha... me yixuan and edwin went out the other day... met shinye and jianhao too. woohoo.. haven't had this kinda outings in a long time. and seeing edwin again.. made us all feel nostalgia i guess..

here are the photos =)

so anyway, i wonder what we'll really become when we have our reunion in 20 years time.. what any of my friends would be like.

i wonder if nergh will still nergh when he feels like it.
i wonder if candice will still paint those beautiful pictures.
i wonder if swee wei and wei jun will still call each other mommy and daddy.
i wonder if kah hui and i will still remember the sc dance we created.
i wonder if me and mel will still sing the barney song.
i wonder if me and joyce will still go out shopping and coffee-ing.
i wonder if i'll still go out with joan, xiaoyin, yixuan and shinye.
i wonder if me and keith will coincidentally be on the same plane again.
i wonder if ryan will still be a volleyball player.
i wonder if edwin will still bowl the superman way.
i wonder if lester will still hate bio.. haha..
i wonder if shawn will still like kingdom hearts.
i wonder if chihoe will come back to s'pore.
i wonder if jiayu will be dancing professionally.
i wonder if joseph will still maintain his prom king looks and build. woo...
i wonder if shaoxun will still be the over-achiever that he always is.

twenty years is a long time... we'll be 37 by then! i wonder if we'll even remember each other... [[sobs]] oh man, i'm not even graduating from nyjc and i'm already getting sappy about it. sigh...

mental notes made on Tuesday, November 15, 2005 10:35 p.m.

today

today was a good day.
a day when i spent the morning lazing in bed.
a day when it rained.
a day where 1 hour bus rides ruled!
a day i first learnt to play bridge.
a day when the wind was so strong i could feel it in my ears.
a day when i had a picnic!
a day when i saw a potty-trained cat.
a day when i talked nonsense for hours and felt great.
a day when i sat barefoot on a bench looking at the waves.
a day when i felt lost, but also that i belonged.
a day when i was with you =)

mental notes made on Thursday, November 10, 2005 06:57 p.m.

stomach

i was so hungry just now, hungry til i wasn't hungry anymore. i was reading Vanishing Acts to keep myself from thinking about hunger as my parents talk to Uncle Jack. funny how they know its already 9pm and i haven't had dinner and i'm hungry but they don't move at all. when i was sitting in the car, i couldn't even think of what i wanted to eat.

i felt something on my knee, i thought it was just one of mom's hair falling unto my knee that was propped up against the back of her seat in the car. i ignored it. but i looked closer and saw that it was a baby lizard. and it looked so comfortable, staring at me as if it was telling me my knee was the most comfortable place it has ever been on. gah! i shooed it away and felt it dash down my leg, unto mom's chair. i think i felt even more un-hungry.

i was staring into space while waiting for the food to arrive at the table. thinking about how fun it was, to just sit in Coffee Bean and talk to Joyce for 3 hours non-stop. about dawn thinking that she was at ghim moh when she was actually somewhere near aloha changi. about how i had such a good time today just seeing piggy from 11am to 1pm+. i thought about how the person you loved most would be the person who would hurt you most too. about how criminals are actually people who looked the most innocent. about how people study so hard and end up not knowing what they want to work as. about how you don't actually remember someone unless you look the person in the eye. about how i don't even remember living in lorang ah soo.

i thought so much that i didn't even realise i was staring at the back of this old ah peh that i adverted my glaze to the dirt on the coffee shop table as fast that lizard had crawled down my leg when the man turned around to stare back at me.

hmm... at least i manage to eat dinner.

mental notes made on Monday, November 7, 2005 10:16 p.m.

dog and bone

remember i blogged before about organising an event to bless the JC2s in my cell group? haha... well... i decided that all of you should know this embarassing incident.

we were all standing on either side of jizheng's swimming pool in his backyard [[really, his house seems like it can out of the OC]] getting ready to jump into the water if our number was called. the rules were simple. in the pool, there were clothes floating about and if your number is called to pick up one of the clothings, then you'll jump in and the first person to get and cold soggy clothing and wear it would win one point.

ahem, i didn't want to play this game. but no... this bryan had to come to the kitchen and drag me away from my [[pretend]] busy-ness to the pool side because there were not enough players. i didn't want to get wet, seriously! and everytime my number was called, i just let the other team get it. sigh...

sam said "cleo! i'll push you in if your number is called and you do'nt jump in"

and i was like, NO WAY. i'll go in myself. so i got myself hyped up and ready in case my number was called because i didn't want to get pushed into the pool.

so unglam.

then wanlin called "rjc pe tee shirt"

and guess what? before she even called a number, i jumped into the pool because i was afraid sam might push me in. ahhh!!!!

SO UNGLAMM

friday night there's gonna be a debrief for the I/Cs of this event. and i'm gonna say nice things about everyone. hope no one remembers this incident. [[blushes]]

mental notes made on Wednesday, November 2, 2005 05:49 p.m.

my shiny coin

last thursday i was on the old 265, the smelly non-air conditioned one. and i was sitting down somewhere near the middle, where its easy to press the bell, one of my favourite seats. then at my foot, the floor of this dirty old faithful bus, was a shiny 20 cents coin. but looking at how dirty the floor was, i didn't want to pick it up, so i just left it there and ignored it.

someone pressed the bell and the bus was turning to stop at the next bus stop. an old man walked towards me and picked up the 20 cents coin.

"bu shi wo de" (it's not mine) i say in chinese.

"finder's keeper's" said the old man, and he smiled at me, a nice friendly smile. i was surprised he spoke to me in good english. i still remember he was wearing a blue shirt, the colour of the start bar at the bottom of my screen. i watched him put the coin in his pocket and walk down the bus.

the thing is, this whole event is rather strange. i normally don't put coins in my pocket, reason being that i have a wallet. but when i went home, i found that shiny 20 cent coin in my pocket. kept it =)

mental notes made on Monday, October 31, 2005 10:03 p.m.

extraordinarily free

i'm really getting more and more free time these few days.. i think it must be chinese and pw.. can't believe i'm taking those 2 A level subs like, now. i used to think i can't imagine myself in JC and now its already near the end of the year.

piggy's sick today... i hope he gets well soon... still has videoing tomorrow at sentosa, i don't think he should go. see? he had one too many late nights studying and stuff. told him he should rest more and take care. i'm glad he's sleeping now.

pw is... quite nerve-recking. mrs mi-che-le told us that we were going too fast.... i think she speaks faster than all our speeds combined. hah! like... didntyousayjustnowthatyourgroup.... blah blah. oh well. i guess we'll just have to s l o w down for tomorrow. and stop reading off the cue cards.

gotta go eat dinner now, papa came home.

mental notes made on Wednesday, October 26, 2005 07:13 p.m.

Only Hope

There's a song that's inside of my soul.
It's the one that I've tried to write over and over again
I'm awake in the infinite cold.
But you sing to me over and over and over again.

So, I lay my head back down.
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only yours, I pray, to be only yours
I know now you're my only hope.

Sing to me the song of the stars.
Of your galaxy dancing and laughing and laughing again.
When it feels like my dreams are so far
Sing to me of the plans that you have for me over again.

So I lay my head back down.
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only yours, I pray, to be only yours
I know now, you're my only hope.

I give you my destiny.
I'm giving you all of me.
I want your symphony, singing in all that I am
At the top of my lungs, I'm giving it back.

So I lay my head back down.
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only yours, I pray, to be only yours
I pray, to be only yours
I know now you're my only hope.

mental notes made on Tuesday, October 25, 2005 04:42 p.m.

random stuff

hmm... i'm sitting in front of the computer screen reading all that my friends have updated... busy eating cheezels too.. hahaha.. popping them into my mouth like i'm watching some movie. i guess i'm more of a visual person, i like imagining stuff rather than thinking about sounds or movements. hmm... busy licking the crumbs off my fingers... aiyoh, cannot get another cheezel out of the bag. [[shake shake shake]] where's that silly cheezel... [shake shake.. plook]] oops.. it rolled out. sigh.. wish it weren't hollow, they're cheating my money, giving me less by leaving the middle empty.

hmm.. what on earth am i doing? i shall continue my pw now. [[puts bag of cheezels down]]

mental notes made on Wednesday, October 19, 2005 04:44 p.m.

oh my gosh

i think i went for the shortest council meeting ever today.. only 1 hour and 15 minutes!! woohoo..

can't believe i'm mugging.. [[self talk]] study hard little girl, you want to pull up your grades for SPA and chinese... chinese A levels are in 2 weeks time!

mental notes made on Tuesday, October 18, 2005 09:18 p.m.

sick

hmmm.. seems like i always come here when i'm sick. haha.. down with a flu, must be because bryan/ephram keeps pushing me into the pool on sunday, when it was SO COLD! brr... but staying in the pool was fun. jizeng's house is fun =) i like his upstairs living room, and downstairs living room and pool table and swimming pool and the 2 little seat float thingies.. very good.. haha.. his house seems like it came out of the show the OC or something. *ah choo!!* sniff.. 'scuse me. went to jizheng's house for the bless-the-JC2s-event for my cell, and i hope we really blessed them with all the food, games and prayer... i was the overall I/C.. heehee... everything went quite smoothly in the end, even though we had to do wet weather programme. and no, we didn't even have a protocol. see? sometimes things go well and we really don't need the silly procedures set in place by the council teachers. heh..

got back my raw scores for my promos, very badly done. it must be something about the council.. taking up so much time. i always only have 1 week to study before major exams, not to mention no time to study for small tests.. don't think i'd do very well overall. hmmm.. won't tell you all about the Elephants i got for my papers. and when i was sniffing while checking papers, its not because i didn't do well okay... its because of this silly flu i've got. failed chinese again... my friends keep telling me that D7 is not a fail grade but it's a fail when i got it on my midyears... why would it be different now? hmm.. dunno lar.

my school's open house was fun fun fun.. i like bringing people around the school. you know, at first me, yixuan and siying were so bored because we had no duties to do... then we saw, people coming in from the school's sidegates and we were like "let's go bring people around lar!!" hahaha... we were stealing jobs away from the school's appointed tour guides, but it was so fun bringing people around we couldn't help it. heehee.. brought them to like, the library and told them about the no-talking-in-the-library! woman. and how we go to lectures to talk/sleep and go to tutorials to ask the teacher what was in the lectures. and how we shouldn't wear jackets even if its cold because you'd be outstanding and the teacher would call you. heehee.. soon heng and gang came too =) hope they liked the school, then i would have many juniors to see during orientation! yay... hope my friends are signing up to be OGLs... i hope i get to interview them too.. muahaha.. just kidding. i'll be in the programmes committee, don't think i'll interview you guys. sorry!

oh yeah, and to all those who left early on friday and didn't stay for the mass workout session, too bad man!! it was so fun... i don't think i'd ever say this but the kickboxing thingie was so fun and the instructor was so nice... because so many people left early, the councillors were all asked to go to the hall, so we pulled in some friends to come with us and it was super fun! you know, sometimes council gets asked to do all the stuff other people don't want to do, but being in the council means all of us are really united and doing anything together could end up really fun =) yay...

i hope kah hui's okay.. his heart problems are acting up again. don't understand why that day Mr Toh didn't want to help kah hui until someone shouted that he stopped breathing and needed CPR.. Mr Toh said that there are somethings he didn't need to explain, but i thought it was very strange, like he didn't care about kah hui until things were very serious. we called an ambulance in the end, i thought that was necessary.. i guess different people have different reactions to situations, but i felt that the way Mr Toh reacted, not wanting to help his student when he was in a life-threatening situation, that reaction was kinda... mean. i just hope kah hui's okay. if not, i won't have a dance partner for the SC mass dance anymore.. really hope he's okay.

now everyone's mugging for bio SPA and PW... good luck everyone, i don't want any of my friends to get retained... see you all in year 2! =)

mental notes made on Tuesday, October 18, 2005 08:45 p.m.

quando quando quando

i like that song. i wonder where that michael buble cd went. pw is stressing me... i guess that's the result of having no meetings at all during the june holidays. the promos are just 2 weeks away.. i'm getting worried. i think i should study. haha.. funny, i'm only thinking that now.

dad brought us to the birdpark yesterday : ) i feel young again! haha... it was fun, the birdshow was fun. the macaws were flying at the end of the show above the audience and the poor people at the right hand side, the macaws there shitted in mid air and the disgusting thing is that they are big parrots, so the shit came erm... raining down. haha.. and dad had this rhea that fell in love with him. its eyelashes are really nice...

dad looked at it and went "blink blink"
and the rhea looked back and "blinked blinked"

and gave dad a peck on the shirt that left a red stain mark in the shape of seductively lips.. hahaha... so funny... mom decided we had to move on. and at the lori loft i had bird poop on my shoulder! yucks... at least lorikeets are small.

finishing the 28th sc dance soon.. : ) can't wait. going to east timor at the end of the year.. yay!! my first mission trip. wanted to go to phillippines last year but my mom didn't allow me. finally... its for a week in december! manda.. if you wanna come too i think my mom says its okay : ) it'll be fun.

mental notes made on Friday, September 9, 2005 04:11 p.m.

studying

stayed home today instead of going to school. missed 2 lectures and i hope i can catch up. yup... sept hols and we have lectures. went back to school yesterday because we had a chinese exam. the craziness of it all... exams and lectures during holidays? no wonder i'm sick.

had a really eventful night last night.. woke up at 3am and started puking.. gross. then mom had this great idea of drinking milk because it would help. yup... woke up at 5am again and puked out yoghurt.

i guess that's what studying bio is like. the examiners don't just want facts, they want them processed. its like drinking milk and puking out yoghurt, same theory. only thing is, i think its easier to do literally then on paper.

mental notes made on Tuesday, September 6, 2005 02:46 p.m.

can't wait for the day i can finally go out shopping

i'm in school now.... its so rare that i've got a break. lol... and since i finished my chocolate fast on national day 9th august, i've gained 1kg. so fast!! i know, haven't eaten chocolate for so long, i really indulged the past few days. haha.. will cut down a little, don't want to grow fat. and btw, my teeth are totally fine from eating the chocolates okay... no cavities!!

i just went to see the dentist yesterday with roy... and she said my teeth are fine : ) yay... i feel pleased. see? sweets don't give you cavities, not brushing your teeth everyday does. i was late for my appointment but good thing i arrived just in time to help roy pay for his checkup. hahaha... that boy only had $20 with him. good thing i brought along $30 with me, the bill for him was $40. then went it was my time i rushed him off to draw some money, if not i'll have to stay and help clean up all the equipment that clean my teeth in the first place.

school is driving me nuts... i just rushed a proposal, going to have 2 consecutive meetings later then rush home to type out minutes AND ANOTHER PROPOSAL. what is going on... i barely have time to do work anymore.... grr... good thing i'm still passing all my tests, studied or not. last night i was rushing to bake cookies for Mr Lau to sample too!! what on earth am i doing? staying up til 12midnight just to bake cookies. and when i came to school i had to tell everyone that i'm saving them for the ad hoc to try, if not by the time the meeting starts later, i'll have no cookies left to give. oh, and why i'm baking cookies is also part of the proposal bit. hahaha.. long story, can't say now. anyway, i think i'd better go off now... don't want to be late for my thousand and one meetings.

mental notes made on Thursday, August 18, 2005 03:54 p.m.

sentosaaaaaa

we went to sentosa... edwin c organised it! can you believe it? i really can't... hahaha... and nobody brought a ball and i only brought a frisbee. so that's all we had to play with. thanks to shaoxun for asking me to bring it. and only me, yixuan, edwin, ryan and shaoxun went. haha.. so playing with the frisbee wasn't that fun. we used it a lot for the sand castle though... erm... okay not sand castle. sand crater. hahaha... you'll know why when you see the pics.

i'm sunbunrt!!!!

yup... then after playing in the sand we threw stones into the sea to see who could get them to skip. shaoxun did it the most... hee... i only managed the 2-skip one. shaoxun could do the 3-skip one. edwin learnt fast.. then there was this family who were playing in the sand too... and they made a really nice sand castle, or should i say sand village. heehee... then after they left me and yixuan started saying that ours was really pathetic and that we should do something about it. hah... that was when shaoxun and edwin went to steal the other people's sand castle. now you know what i mean when they used the frisbee lots for the sand castle. hmmm.... they only managed to steal a seashell-shaped "sand monument" from the other people's sand castle. so bad..... like ryan said, and i quote, they went to destroy other people's sand castle. lol.... but they weren't there already lar, so its okay.

we went to play pool after that. it was so fun!!!! then i wanted to take pictures of us playing pool because we haven't done that in a long time. and i only managed 2 pictures when suddenly a voice boomed over the PA system.

"no taking of photographs are allowed. please do not use cameras when playing because it is dangerous. table 27, please do not use the camera anymore."

they we all started looking for the camera that they used to spy on us. so embarassing..... the whole world looked over at our table and the number 27 was so HUGE! grr... but nevermind, after that it wasn't so embarassing anymore. heehee... and i quickly hid my camera so that no one knows i was the one who was taking the pictures. and the best part was i couldn't remove the flash of the camera, so it was so obvious that we were taking pictures. haha...

oh well... here are the pictures.

mental notes made on Sunday, July 3, 2005 10:55 p.m.

similarities

i've come to realise that lotsa people remind me of other people that i know. like uncle eddy. he wakes up every morning and says good morning to sunny. lol... sounds exactly like mom. then he tells sunny, "be strong and courageous" and this ho chi hoe reminds me of my uncle eddy too. haha... this is so weird...and lester's grandmother just passed away too, 3 days after my dearest ah ma. and i still remember our grandfathers passed away around the same time too!! lemme think... was it 2003? i already can't remember which year it was. heh...

and old habits die hard huh lester.... can you imagine, he still calls me for help with bio. hello... different levels of education now okay? different syllabus... i kinda miss the good old days when the 11 of us were just goofying around in amkss and forming little study groups together. now we can't even study together anymore! and what pains me is that we can't even have a decent gathering. i miss 4/1 :(

and i love the new webcam that uncle eddy bought for us! yay yay yay... i'm so excited. its super clear : ) happiness... i have decided that after my exams i shall see manda and cheryl and chihoe and whoever else that is related to me who has a webcam who is in a different country. heehee... i know i haven't been emailing much but this month's been busy. heck, i've always been busy. well.... chinese midyears tomorrow, i shall go back to do some reading and some math. tata....

mental notes made on Thursday, June 23, 2005 03:53 p.m.

its over

everything's over now. the funeral wake and the cremation...

i still remember, all of us grandchildren on wednesday night during the service.. heehee... we were so nervous in the morning, practising for our performance at night. when it was really our turn, we all stood up nervously, with michelle in front holding the lyrics. we looked around at the crowd, and waited for roy's cue. poor dawnie was so sad, she was crying so much that she couldn't sing with us properly. so i guess the vocals came mainly from michelle, me and samuel.

i guess it wasn't too nice, our hokkien was not accurate, but i really think it was the thought that counted. we had prepared so much to deliver our song, one hokkien song, for our ah ma. and though it was soft and the words were spoken inaccurately, it meant a lot to me.

i have decided to follow Jesus
i have decided to follow Jesus
i have decided to follow Jesus
no turning back, no turning back

indeed, our ah ma has gone to follow Jesus into the place in heaven that He has prepared for her. and though we miss her so much, and though we know we will never see her silly little 1-toothed smile, or hear her "si-to-ly" ever again, we know she's in a better place now. a place without sorrows, pain or sufferings.

yes, we'll be strong and of good courage... we won't cry no more. it's over.

mental notes made on Friday, June 17, 2005 05:40 p.m.

united we stand, divided we fall. we are the quadruplets forever more!

wonder if you guys remember this... we were so young then. heehee... and when uncle eddy told us to say it into the camera, we all giggled and looked away. i wonder why we were so shy then, but what uncle eddy said was true.

"if you don't say it now into the camera, you might never remember this."

and i guess we really forgot.. me and dawn were like, what was uncle eddy trying to get us to say? i really appreciate the video camera for this, capturing memories that our minds can sometimes forgot. manda, cheryl, i guess we really miss you now. ah ma just passed away today. i wonder if you know. seeing her on video just makes things worse.

she was really holding on you know, we could tell. her heartbeat had a max of only 60 per minute, and a min of 32 beats per minute. it was a miracle that she held on long enough to hear uncle eddy's voice one last time. after that, she stopped gasping for breath. i guess she's semiconcious the whole time, she didn't respond when we called her, but i guess should could tell that it was uncle eddy that called her the last time. it was terrible, seeing her like that. i don't want to go through it ever again. first it was yeye, now ah ma.

i dunno how i'm gonna stop myself from crying tomorrow again.

mental notes made on Tuesday, June 14, 2005 01:12 a.m.

danger list

to all relatives and friends

ah ma is in the hospital now, on the danger list. her body is retaining water in her limbs and now she looks quite puffy. there's a problem with her gut, the doctor found out when they found dried blood in her mouth. something to do with internal bleeding. she went for scans today and the results will be out tomorrow. the doctor said if it's seirous he'll call uncle bob right away. her hip bone is still fractured in 4 different places but the doctor will concentrate on curing the gut problem first, especially since she's not eating. they've taken the cast off her hip and legs because it's cutting off the circulation to her feet and the top priority now is to cure the gut problem first anyway. they've increased the painkiller dosage because they've taken out the cast too. maybe that's why she's been really tired and sleepy lately.

please pray for her. i think she's in a lot of pain, though she's not saying it. pray for the water retention to go down too, because its making it difficult to draw blood. her blood pressure and white blood count is also going up. we can't make a decision on the next step because the report's not out yet, but i really hope it'll all be okay soon.

things are really getting rather chaotic here, especially when we don't even know what's the problem with her gut. i really wish i had more time too, to visit her, to do my school work, the planning for the sc investiture, to go for dance and cell... too many things to do, too many places to be and not enough time for everything.

i just want my ah ma to be okay.

mental notes made on Friday, June 10, 2005 10:36 p.m.

free dates

so anyway, scratch all that i said earlier, i'm not free for all the holiday dates except the 3rd week before my midyears which i'm keeping free to study. yup.... that's it. and i've got lotsa council camp scars to show, especially the ones on my face, the sandflies love my face. yucks....

okay for all who don't know, i went for the council elects camp on the 28, 29 and 30th june at pulua ubin and i've never been happier to be back in singapore. haha... drinking water, flushable toilets, taps that have water, sleeping on beds instead of sand.... and most of all, no more crunchy food. i tell you camping on the beach is terrible. sand is everywhere, you eat sand, sleep sand, drink sand, dream sand. you know, some of my fellow elects have nightmares that the seniors are waking them up in the middle of the night. oh my gosh, how bad is that? basically, the camp is like a military camp where we have to fall in in the middle of the night and greet all our seinors with a madam or sir behind. my bag weighed 14kg!!! because we had to bring our own drinking water for cooking and washing our utensils and stuff. you know, in the end we didn't even have time to walk to the toilets to wash our hands before eating. worse still, on the second day, the toilets had no water at all! not that we were given time to bathe anyway. yes, imagine the torture, 3 days without even changing our underwear. the poor girls who had their periods, i think that was really bad.

we didn't know we would get scolded for having fun during the campfire either... that was a real bummer. not that we were scolded during the camp fire, but it was afterward in the middle of the night. yup.... we slept at like 9pm, wake up at 12am, sleep again at 3am, wake up at 5am to do physical training and stuff like that. it rained on the second afternoon, it was a good rest, but we kept finding caterpillas on the roof of our tent. lol... and we kept hearing the seniors making fun of us about the way we do our push ups. it was kinda degrading, hearing them laugh and imitate us. well... not everyone could do like, 60 pumpings in a row, right? basically, the whole campe was a whole lot of push ups, a whole lot of mosquitoes and a whole lot of sand. when we came back to school on the last day, we were still required to call all our seniors sirs and madams. i think we're still quite afraid of some of our seniors, they still joke about calling us to knock it down. sigh... the sad thing is, our batch now is thinking of who should be our next council camp's discipline master/mistress. its like the whole horrible cycle is gonna repeat again. i don't want my juniors to listen to me out of fear, i want them to listen out of respect. i thought our school's vision was to have a value-added college that nurtures COMPASSIONATE, THINKING and RESILIENT LEADERS. i didn't think our school's student leaders were going to be driven like a uniform group.

so anyway, i guess i'll hide when my batch of councillors organizes our camp for our juniors in future. i don't wanna be called a madam, or to shout at them for falling in slowly, or to demand anything physically out of them [[except for being present for meetings]]. yup..... i'll definitely say the camp was an experience, just.... the majority of it wasn't really happy memories, just fear and a lot of sweat. you know i sprained my back before? well yeah.... 14kilos on my bag and jogging didn't do it any good, my back is hurting again now. i'll still dance though, i won't let it stop me. a little pain didn't kill anyone.... i've learnt that in the camp too. hey, doing push ups in the sand is not joke, and the sand there is not the nice soft kind but the hard rough kind. oh and i just remembered! we even got scolded for brushing sand off our knees and palms, so we just had sand all over and didn't dare to brush much of it off. its torture..!! or maybe i'm just not the outdoorsie kind who doesn't mind not bathing and having sand everywhere for 3 days.

so...... dawn and i are going shopping tomorrow : ) missed going out with her. and i'm going to watch a movie at night with papa!! yay!! i can't wait for that too.. heehee... anyway, he'll pay : ) that means i can get popcorn too!!! i really love being back in singapore.

oh yeah, btw, congrats to joshua, sandar, bee fong, shawn, audrey, candice, cunzheng and eric. you guys made it to exco!!! i think half the exco is christian : ) i hope that means a change in the uniform group system. no more fear please, though its an effective form of social control.

so yeah.... i'm going off now, eyes are tired, and i feel really stretched nowadays. i'm glad my tutoring days are over, now to just concentrate on church, dance, studies and council. one less thing on my mind!!! i'm going to sleep.

mental notes made on Saturday, June 4, 2005 11:22 p.m.

to all who are concerned, i've just gotten my schedule for the june holidays and i'll be free only from the 7th to 10th and the 14th to 17th of june. all other dates are already filled with school work :( so yeah... if there's anything important, please call me, don't email because i'm really getting quite detached from the world of technology. thanks.

mental notes made on Tuesday, May 24, 2005 08:16 p.m.

upd8s

okay so i've been away for a while... hahaha... had no time to blog okay? i had no time to play too and i have a math test coming up on wednesday, along with chinese oral and listening compre. you know i almost failed my oral before? yes, congratulate me, i had a 17/30 for my chinese oral. and on friday i have a full chinese test. phew... tiring... i'm glad i haven't had any mock spas yet, though i think it'll come next week with my chem test. sigh...

oh yeah, i got into the student council. haha... my first step into hell in JC life. oh well... at least now i have a cca. and dance in church is getting really tough, i'm having muscle aches from all that stretching and dancing about. having napfa this friday too, as well as college day on saturday. june's gonna be busy with URcamp [[radiate]] and council camp. mom's gotten the whole family invovled in her company's family day on vesak day. everything's becoming more and more busy... sigh...

oh and i'm not going to watch swan lake, the tickets are sold out and i think i'll have no time. heehee... would love to meet up with sheena and joyce one day... haven't see those too beautiful gals in a long long time. hint hint... i know, contradiction, no time yet i wanna go out. heehee... nevermind, never hurts to think about it. NYJC volley ball playing finals on wednesday! go nanyang go!

mental notes made on Monday, May 9, 2005 05:54 p.m.

birdy!

tiger woods has yet another green jacket! what's wrong with him... this is the 4th one okay... tiger woods is just too good. hahaha... my dad's watching the master's again.. second time already i think. and that guy that got the hole in one is cool! tevor immelman i think. heh...

so anyway.... i got through the council interviews! yay! hahaha... but now i don't think i might wanna even go anymore... because we'll have to go through a lot, and i can say some of it is retarded and embarassing and sometimes, i just feel like giving it up. lol... don't worry, i'm not gonna campaign and like, put up posters of myself around the school or something. hahaha... i'm gonna look as though i'm not running for elections. ahem, ignore that bright green tag that i have to wear to school everyday now.

so tomorrow, i have to wake up early to get scrutinised by the student councillors like, 4 times before i can go home. and i haven't even prepared my one-minute-speech-that-has-to-impress-the-whole-school thingie. ahh!!! so i'm gonna embarass myself.... shawn is gonna do a mime i think... or was it sign language? well, wish him luck, he really wants to get into council. hope he makes an impact. lol.... you know he show me this morning what he was gonna do and his hands were like flying everywhere because he was doing it so fast and like, whoa....... okay.... i have no idea what you're doing. lol... i told him to say out what he's doing, rather then the "Actions speak louder than words" thingie he wanted to do. i think that's going a bit too extreme... heehee... but its original and creative, i wonder what i'll do.

and i'm gonna watch swam lake!! yay!!! i love watching ballet!!

and i have a lot of work i have not done because i'm so busy with council stuff. see? i told you i wouldn't mind if i didn't get in. even jonathan choy is advising me not to join, what kinda councillor is he... hahaha... okay, whatever. i shall go and look for things to help me with my PI now. heh... don't like project work already.

oh wait, i before i go, i have to tell you about my scary chinese teacher!!! she's naggy and seems to be in a bad mood all the time. she's sulky and likes to give us a pouting face when she's unhappy. and today!!! she talked about big ear lobes and got so excited that when she was standing in front of me talking to the class bits of her saliva was falling all over my face. yucks! and i had to clean my specs. reminds me, i shall go wash them. i told shinye about it..... and hahaha... she told me to tell chen lao shi "lao shi, tu ran xia yu le...." [[meaning, "Sudden starting to rain..." ]] hahaha... okay, i shan't be mean, just telling the truth.

so i shall really go now.... cya guys.

mental notes made on Friday, April 15, 2005 08:02 p.m.

i'm back!

hey do you know what? i just typed out my wonderful entry and guess what? the next screen couldn't load so i have to retype this entry again. hah! and i'm in the school library now and the font of the words are again super small. lol... nevermind.

anyway, last saturday was kinda fun... though i was a little hurt at first. lol... so chihoe, its not only you who's feeling sad. but its okay, i feel much better now. anyway, we had a very exciting dance item on saturday... because there were only 5 people in church including debbie... so we just worked with what we had. and we did dances that spelled out names out. so i'll have to do a dance that has the letters C L E O inside and michelle would have to do one with M I C H E L L E and so on.... then we performed it to a random piece of music and it was so interesting to watch!!! heehee...

then debbie asked us all to learn each other's fragments so we would have spelt 4 names and we choreographed a new dance just like that!! it was so exciting =) so now i know a dance which spells belljoy, michelle, cleo and janice. heehee.... very cool. and its a mix of hiphop, modern, ballet and jazz =) because belljoy is ballet-ish and so am i... but i'm a little jazzy too. then michelle and janice are modern and hiphop respectively. heehee... very fun!

then i had a little shopping at night with dawnie... after spending the day alone because of some abruptly cancelled plans. andi t was good bonding time. we saw you lester!! working at sakae sushi =) we wanted to eat there but there was a super long queue so we'll go down another day to kajiao you. hahaha... too bad i only have the option of going with my sister... she's the only one who didn't pangseh me and i think... since the others have already turned my offers to go out at least 3 times already, i shan't ask them again. what for right? i'll take their hint. like what chihoe said, if this is what friendship means to them, then forget it.

so anyway, now i'm waiting in school for the student council interview thingie. it starts at 5.30pm and my lessons ended at about 1.10pm. sigh.... so i've been waiting really long.
more favour!!!
still remember what paster mahesh chavda said we need to pray for. heehee... i hope i find favour in the eyes of my interviewers today... oh if you want to know more about pastor mahesh, go to http://www.goodlookingevangelist.com/ and find our more about him. he's a very anointed man and it was wonderful to listen to his sermon. you know, when he's on stage we could see like, glitter all over him. how powerful is the anointing of God! this is the first time i have "seen" the holy spirit and it was truly amazing. so go to his webbie if you can okay? his sermons are posted there too i think.

mental notes made on Monday, April 11, 2005 03:39 p.m.

just heard this song and i found comfort in it. here are the lyrics......

Hands [[christmas version]]
- Jewel

if i could tell the world just one thing
it would be that we're all okay
and not to worry 'cause worry is wasteful
and useless in times like these
i won't be made useless
i won't be idle with despair
i'll gather myself around my faith
for light does the darkness most fear

my hands are small, i know
but they're not yours,
they are my own
but they're not yours,
they are my own
and i am never broken

poverty stole your golden shoes
it didn't steal your laughter
and heartache came to visit me
but i knew it wasn't ever after
we will fight not out of spite
for someone must stand up for what's right

'cause where there's a man who has no voice
there ours shall go singing

('cuz) in the end only kindness matters
in the end only kindness matters
i will get down on my knees, and i will pray

we are God's eyes
God's hands
we are reflections of God

mental notes made on Friday, April 1, 2005 09:29 p.m.

new classes

eeee........ i don't really like my new class, though shinye and yixuan are in the same class. hmmm.... i guess i have to learn to like wherever i am, because i'm gonna be here for 2 years!!

okay, things i don't really like about junior college.
1. everyone's skirts are so short, if your skirt is not obscene, you'll look nerdy.
2. we have to move from class room to class room to class room and it gets tiring after a while.
3. we have no textbooks so the library gets crowded when tutorials are issued.
4. i don't know what cca to join.

hmmm... so jc isn't that bad right? lol... i hope not. project work doesn't seem too interesting. and i'm still wondering if i should even think of altering my skirt so that it isn't over my knees. lol... mom thinks i have to go to a tailor to get it altered, and that kinda takes long, so i shall do it myself if i can. i lived with my skirt touching my knees in secondary school, don't really want to have that image anymore. heehee... not that things are going to be very different.

for one thing, i don't like my class now, because hmmm.... how should i put this? it seems as though its mainly chinese speaking and there are lots of "ah lians" in the class. i want my good old class back!!! all of us were lousy in our chinese and it least i fitted in.. now i feel antisocial again. oh wait.... this looks like back in primary school and the beginning of secondary school. because the culture was so inclined to chinese i was completely introverted. and now i'm gonna be ANTISOCIAL AGAIN!! sigh.... what's happening? i guess i only thought nanyang wasn't china because "first 3 months 05S1B" was what people here call "ang moh". and now i'm in 05S1C and guess what? it's what i call "china". =( someone save me. i wish the school were more english speaking.

and furthermore, i have no idea what cca to join!!! maybe i should join the library, but i'm afraid i won't get selected. then i wanna join the student council, but again am afraid that i won't get selected. and i'm also worried that i may not have enough time for my homework next time. arghhh....... why so indecisive cleo chen?? get a grip!! you used to be able to make a decision at the snap of your fingers and now you're taking longer and longer to even choose your cca!!! it's because the silly dance club in nanyang is doing belly dancing for their syf and no thank you, i don't want to show off my belly on stage! [[breaths out loudly]] then i might join cheerleading because they've employed the coach from ngee ann poly i think, and i heard that the winning team of the cheerobics kind of comes annually from ngee ann or something. but i'm afraid the seniors would all be rather.... [[keeps quiet]]. but then again they are stepping down. and the thing is, there are hardly any guys who signed up and i wonder if the people who signed up for cheerleading are.... [[keeps quiet again]]

hmmm.... i have A LOT to think about.. i wish life were simpler when you grow older. things just get more complicated though... and sometimes i just wanna hide in my bed under my quilt and stay there... being happy, warm, snug and contented.

at least there's something to look forward to tomorrow =) i'm performing in church when we celebrate the youth service in coos. woohooo!!!! i'm so excited. i've never performed in church before and the double levelled stage kinda makes me nervous but i know everything will be alright. we're gonna practice with the stomp guys before the performance at 6pm. its the second item, even before the rock and roll [[praise and worship]]. i can't wait to go to church tomorrow.... i can't wait. pray for the dance team and the service!!!

mental notes made on Friday, April 1, 2005 08:23 p.m.

no butts

hahaha....... i had an interesting dinner. finally everyone in the house had a dinner together, hadn't had one like that for a long long time. so anyway.... my mom cooked so much food that we couldn't finish it and we were thinking who should eat the remaining egg and fish.

and i tell you the fight is between roy and dawn because neither of them have butts. hahaha.... roy called dawnie "ass-less". hahahahaha.... i was laughing my head off. then roy defended himself so that he didn't need to eat the food by saying "i've got a small butt." lol.... small butt = no butt. what can i say... i have always been the heaviest of us three, so no one can make me eat the extra food. heeheehee.... though i'm still underweight.

you know, even our weights at birth, even though i was only like, 7 months old when i was born premature i was still the heaviest of us three babies. hahaha... roy's the lightest, as usual.

what did i say? he has no butt. and well he chomped everything down in the end because he has big stomach, no butt. no problem.

anyway, me and shinye and yixuan had a really exciting day today.... we decided to explore s'pore because there are places we haven't been to before. and so... we started thinking of places we can go to after school for some retail therapy. and i thought of great world city because i haven't been there in a long long time. and i guess that's where all the adventures began. i shall name this,
lord of the malls
because my dad just went on a lord of the rings frenzy. haha.... he bought the extended versions of the trilogy and we've been watching it every night til we've finished watching it all all over again. and i still think samwise gamgee is the best best best hero in the whole show and that frodo baggins is quite useless.

oh where was i? yes, the shopping. we called all reinforcements but all efforts to find a guide to GWC were in vain. we had to make this journey alone!! during our long and ardous trek afternoon and afternoon towards seragoon mrt station, we rested on bubble tea before continueing on to the north south line which got us to dhouby ghat where our journey just began. we search high and low on that miserable puny information board about the bus stops and things like that until we saw the magic words "bus to GWC" [[imagine gandulf saying "path to mordor"]] alas!! it was on the opposite side of the road, the transport was, so we ducked the traffic, dashing in and out of harm's way before finally reaching the bus stop where we took bus 16, after a long 15 mintues of standing under the relentless sun [[which was appartently covered by clouds because it really looked like it could rain]]

right.... and after all evil was put in its place [[and all crapping had stopped]] we reached great world city where we walked around for like, quite long, til we forgot even to eat lunch til it was like 3.15pm. hahaha... but shopping is fun fun fun. i just bought a black pair of reebok shoes yesterday and today i went out and im glad to say, i didn't spend too much. seriously.... i have limitied myself to just bringing $20 to school everyday until the money runs out before topping up another $20 in my wallet. helps me spend much less. hahaha.... if not my shopaholic self would take over and i'd lose control. all those sales...... who could resist???

muahahaha.... so anyway, i think i shall get away from the comp now. even though the air conditioning is switched on, it's evilly hot here. i wonder what's wrong with our climates nowadays. gotta go get some cooler air. i'm too hot for the comp =)

mental notes made on Monday, March 28, 2005 09:04 p.m.

orientation 2!

woohoo.... O2 was fun fun fun. i have a really big feeling that the OGLs had more fun than the OG... lol... well of course, we were around for everything when almost always half the OG is running away!

well i guess we can't expect them to stay for the orientation with all the appeals and things like that. further more they kept sneaking off to other OGs because majority of their friends/classmates were there. so many OGs were overcrowded and even more were under populated. hahaha...

my OG is one good example of a extremely small group. there were mainly about 11 people in the group at one time, and all the guys were so guai!! well... most of them. Cheryl was so afraid that the school was gonna be really chinese... hahaha... good thing she's got a good friend, susanna. at least maybe she'll give nanyang a try, it isn't that bad, really. i guess we [[shun gui, duan yu and me]] weren't really good OGLs, we didn't manage to get the group very enthusiastic or bonded =( im' sorry guys.. we'll be better OGLs next time. lol... if htere's a next time.

then there was this horrible incident on the track. my poor OG member yong chee was scolded so badly... because we were having our pizza party on the track and the soccer boys were practising on the field which was inside the track. and they kicked the ball over towards the track [[public hazards!!!!]] so someone shouted "ball!!" and i ducked just in case. the ball landed really far away, hahaha... me = scaredy cat. so yong chee said "aiyah the ball so far away, won't hit you one lar".

then the teacher in charge of soccer came storming over and shouted in our direction "who said our soccer team is lousy??" and he started accusing yong chee of bad-mouthing the soccer team. i mean, come on, he didn't say anything bad and the stupid teacher was shouting at him. if i were him, receiving all that horrible scolding, i would cry like crazy!! and the teacher scolded him for his bad attitude and everything and we were all so shocked. he didn't even get his facts right and he was shouting at this poor innocent boy about his attitude?! what about his own??? i felt so sorry for yong chee, but none of us could help him.... even our nazgul elder kenneth went over to help and the teacher shouted at him and said "kenneth!! look at his attitude?? how could you stand such an attitude?? i would be letting down the ministry of education, the college, the staff, and last of all myself if i did not educate this gangster."

all of us were like... what...? he's just plain mean. i'm glad most nanyang teachers aren't like him. hahaha... he made us all lose our appetite during our pizza party =( mean horrible teacher...

the costume party thing was fun... only there were no costumes. hahhaa... no one bothered wearing one. we were only interested in the dancing portion, and we were so sad it was only for like, an hour or so. =( i like dancing... lol... the last time we danced til about 9pm!! this time it was only til 7.30pm!!! so big a difference... hahaha... no wonder the 2nd intakers don't really feel bonded to nanyang, the dancing was so short and the orientation was 2 days!!

well so now... i'm dead beat. ooo...come to think of it, im' always tired nowadays. roy says its the waking up early everyday. fatigue building up or something... i hope not. school starts soon, wish me luck. happy easter too everyone!!

mental notes made on Sunday, March 27, 2005 02:55 p.m.

cocktails

hahaha... after a singapore swing at tony roma's mr roy chen is asleep in bed. and it was only 1 glass... hahaha... that boy is lousy. i had more than 1 glass of alcoholic drinks before and i was still awake as ever. i don't get drunk easily i guess. heehee..

then mom started telling us about roy when he was young, about 3 years old. she said she went to his wedding dinner and they were happily eating away with roy on the highchair. drunken prawns came to the table and she peeled the shells and gave them to roy. hahaha... and the thing is, he got drunk!!! it was so funny... she said he started talking and talking and her colleages were happily playing with him and asking him as many questions as they could because he became so talkative.

and it's so amazing now because now that roy's grown up, when he's drunk, he sleeps!! totally opposite from being talkative. and the thing is, the person who was talking the most just now was mama instead!!! hahaha... so funny. dawnie didn't dare drink any cocktails, she's afraid she'll get drunk. lol... reminds me of the time i went wine tasting in perth.

mom and dad have been married for 24 years!! that's what we celebrated just now, haha... gor always says mama finds excuses to eat good food. this afternoon she took a half day leave to have lunch with dad at hilton i think... and they ate at this bar and chocked up a bill of $100++!! amazing.... and i heard the oysters were really good... i shall go there one day to pig out. muahahaha...

can you imagine... next year will be their silver jubilee!! it's amazing... just like cocktails!! i mean, mom and dad were from totally different backgrounds. mama was really poor, til they had to skimp on meals and dad was rich, always living in big landed properties. and in those times... i guess carrying a $50 bill in your pocket as a sec sch kid is really something you don't see everyday. and mix them together and of course, you get us. and like cocktails, we're a great product okay.. hahaha...

except that mom was saying how we were totally different from one another. dawnie chen leaves her used tissue papers everywhere, roy leaves his unused tissue paper packets in his jeans pockets and i leave my dollar bills in my pockets. hahaha... no wonder daddy says he would like to wash my clothes. humph....

i'm glad my parents are together, i really am. and i want to celebrate as many anniversaries with them as i can.

mental notes made on Monday, March 21, 2005 10:29 p.m.

pictures

kay.... here are the pictures of my short hair. i don't think it's too short though. check it out. click here.

mental notes made on Wednesday, March 16, 2005 12:10 p.m.

tagboard!!!

i'm glad i can see my tagboard again. heehee....

to mel: lol... i'm busy all the days of the holidays and i just saw your tag so i guess there will be no gathering for the 4/1 peeps 2004 just yet huh... lol... maybe another time. i miss all you guys though.

to ryan: ahem!! i like my hair the way it is okay... not ready to let it grow longer yet though.. heh. thought of keeping it like this for the rest of the year.

to chihoe: i'm too lazy to find a new template... sigh. if you want you can make a new one for me. lol... [[hint hint]]. and it's true, i think you've found yourself a tagboard admirer =P hahaha.... oh yeah and i wrote the incident on your email then copied it to the blog. heehee...

to manda: i replied your email =) haha... aren't you proud of me?? well check at my bloggie too okay... because sometimes i don't repeat what i say. oh, maybe, most of the time i don't repeat what i say, unless i have to make the email longer, which i don't =P what am i talking about.. nevermind.

to joycey: heehee!! i can't wait to go out on thursday... it's good warm up before dance. hahaha... and my present is seriously overdue.

yup. so that's all the replies, didn't wanna type all that on my taggie, i think i would flood my own board. going to have lunch later, then going to alison's house for that bbq... lol... she must be excited ernest is going... haha.

okay okay, i shall stop the teasing. do you know..... i saw this amazingly nice shirt that day in robinsons and i like it so much, but hate the price tag. it's priced at $59.90!! irritating people... they are just mean to me. and yesterday i went back to look at it again and there was only 1 small size left, the rest were like, XXL. =( mom still told me to wait for a sale. i think by the time that comes my beautiful shirt would be gone.

i shall stop thinking about it. heh... i shall take a picture of my wonderful [[ahem to ryan]] hair now. heehee.... will post it up later.

kay... gonna make some phone calls now, byebye....

mental notes made on Wednesday, March 16, 2005 11:31 a.m.

irritating bunch of guys.

guess what? tomorrow i only have 1 lesson, which is the bio practical that lasts for 1 and a half hours and i heard that the teachers have no plans but to go through what we did for the first 3 months.....

hmmm..... makes me wonder, should i go to school tomorrow? oh wait, i don't wanna do CWO. that's just bad. i shall go to school.

anyway, i met the dumbest bunch of irritating guys on the bus today. you meet all sortsa people on 265, i wonder why. it's an interesting bus to take.

the incredibly stupid people were trying to get my phone number. i think they were from yio chu kang secondary, looking at the uniform. get this, it was worse than the time that chihoe lost his handphone in joseph's condoninium estate. seriously......... do you know what they did? they saw my name on my nametag [[no wonder i hate name tags now]] then all rushed up the same bus as me.

then one of them called me, so i turned around and one of them said that he was from the same primary school as me. so i started chatting with the 6 or 7 of them and they started guessing my primary school. sigh......... so lame. someone guess i was from st nicholas, another said ang mo kio primary, another said mayflower primary and seriously, by this time i wanted to laugh my head off. how stupid could they get?

i told them i was from kebun baru primary and the person who didn't say anything during the "guess which primary school she came from session" said

"see! i told you, she's from my primary school. i was from 6C, i remember her. "

so fine, i almost believed him. i wanted to ask him if he knew some of my friends from 6C, lol... but i guess i shan't embarass them. so anyway, they asked a whole bunch about me before asking for my number, and seriously, who wouldn't see it coming?? i told them i don't give my number to strange guys and one of them actually said he was a girl. o.0 how weird.

it really made me think of the times when we went swimming at joseph's house. i really miss you guys..... the 4/1 2004 gang. goondu club, were we? hahaha... thinking of that silly incident when the guys left their bags outside the sauna and chihoe got handphone all missing in the end. even us girls didn't go into the sauna. hahaha..... okay okay, i know it was a painful experience, losing your beloved phone. chihoe, i feel your heartache.

it just made me think of you guys, that's all, and how the irritating ppl [[that time at joseph's pool]] said they'd "help you find your phone if i gave them my number". come to think of it, i think these 2 bunches of people are just as dumb, just that the ones at joseph's house were chinese speaking and the ones i met on the bus were well-mannered english speaking people.

lol........ when i tell shaoxun he's seriously going to freak.

oh and i cut my hair! it's short now, or maybe just shorter. oh wait, judging by the look on ryan's face today, i think its just plain short. hahaha... ryan so guan hong looked so freaked out seeing my hair short now. he stared at me as if i were some alien. what's wrong with short hair? i like it that i don't have to tie my hair anymore. hmph.... hahaha... but if i really really look better with my hair long, it's okay, hair can grow again. really.

so anyway, i'm pretty free now... really. i wonder if i should make some notes, fill up some notebooks with the stuff i learnt during the first 3 months. anyway, the holidays are coming, i could finish my notes then too. oh!!! i'm supposed to call kok hong from cell!!! oops..... forgot, i shall call me now. buh bye.... =)

mental notes made on Wednesday, March 9, 2005 05:49 p.m.

helloooooooo world!!

see joycey.... i changed the font colours just for you because you didn't like the old one. lol... =) hope you like it better now. maybe i should change my template some day. heehee... i guess my blog's template kinda stays the same because i like the constant too much. too much change is no good for me, that's why i would love to stay in nanyang.

guess what you guys? i got a hair cut. wonder if you'll freak. hahahaha... well you'll see on monday, for those of ya in nanyang. heh, but i think it's nice okay? i like my hairdresser. i was telling her to cut my hair but i was afraid it was gonna be too short so she cut it and i like it now. even roy chen xiang yi told me it was nice. =) [[feels pleased]]

okay maybe you guys wouldn't exactly be so used to it yet but it's okay, i like it a lot a lot so i do'nt care. hahaha.. [[piggy don't freak out okay? lol... ]]

mr chan is killing us with bio homework. oh wait, actually it's mrs cindy tay. errks... all her fault. and i hope we don't have that inequalities test on monday. so anyway, i shall get back to doing that project, because shawn wong is feeding me too much info i have to do that project soon. i thought he had tuition... gah... seems like he's more free than me.

mental notes made on Sunday, March 6, 2005 06:41 p.m.

AARRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

i feel like whining. can i whine to someone please? i don't want to do anymore homework, study for anymore tests, go through anymore examinations and i especially don't want to go overseas to study in a university.

[[blinks hard]] oh no, i forgot i'm supposed to write a letter to mr hanis explaining why what i did was wrong and blah blah.... grrr... i'm in a bad bad bad mood. i guess that was since... hmmm... monday? lol. and you might want to guess why. wouldn't expect anyone to read this, but i just need to vent.

this jae thing is horrible, i don't want to be unable to go where i want to go, or study what i want to study. going through this whole system again just doesn't seem like the best thing to me now, and i wonder why. thinking what it's like to go overseas now to study, i guess that might be even more stressful, right? there's no escaping this horrible system, but i guess if i don't want to leave s'pore, i'll just have to bear with it.

i can't wait for my dance tomorrow, i guess that's the only thing that i really look forward to nowadays, and something else too of course, which i won't say now. i guess even though i'm lonely there, i feel good. dancing is kind of the only thing that makes me actually feel good now. bleargh. i shall go now. grrrrr.....

mental notes made on Friday, March 4, 2005 08:42 p.m.

results

lol... i hope all you guys out there are happy about your results, because wherever you go, i'm sure God has a purpose for you okay? and you should be glad he has planned your future for you so you don't have to worry.

for all those who were wondering, i've got 14 points for my o levels. not too shabby if i should say so myself. lol... staying in nanyang jc, because i wanna be an ogl there. haha.. well that's not the only reason, but nevermind.

my birthday was kinda fun, spent time with shinye, jiayu and yixuan taking neoprints in heartland mall. hahaha... i think we took quite a lot, but it was fun. got presents from lotsa people, though joycey [[ahem ahem]] didn't bring my present that she was supposed to give me yesterday and auntie corrine spent the day wrapping it and forgot to bring it to my house during the celebration thingie. lol... well anyway, thinking of what i should put as my other choices for my jc. waiting for mom to come home because i need for credit card number. will go off for now, ttfn!!

mental notes made on Tuesday, March 1, 2005 09:53 p.m.

results!!

sigh sigh sigh.
results are coming out.
i can feel my heart thump just at the thought of it. oh no.......
there's a million different emotions going on inside me, especially when we don't even know when the release of the results are.

such sadists... playing around with our feelings.

dunno what's going on with me lately. sorry manda, cheryl and chihoe, haven't had time to write you guys any emails. furthermore i'm joining the dance team in church so my whole saturday will be taken up from this week onwards i guess. left only sunday to rest, and that's the day i have to do homework and notes. sigh... i already feel stressed out. i'm getting old.

not really actually, i guess this is getting kinda boring for you guys. don't expect anyone to read everything anyway. ran out of school last friday, only because we had no more work to do in school and didn't wanna do nothing from 10am to 12pm. guess the teachers aren't too happy, they've called us up for CWO [[corrective work order]] on wednesday and put down in our records a black mark, so i guess maybe i can't stay in this JC. maybe no other JC might want me, after all i left school [[because i had nothing on]]. maybe it isn't so serious. sigh... never thought i'd ever end up in a situation like this. think the school system's just plain screwed.

bleargh

mental notes made on Wednesday, February 23, 2005 04:41 p.m.

valentine's day

lol... i think valentine's day wasn't exactly a very eventful day for me, but i like it anyway. =) feasted my eyes on keanu reeves playing constantine on sunday. you would have literally heard my heartbeat. that movie is so darn scary! but it was good. hahaha... me and sheena were talking about in the bio lecture and were trying desperately to muffle our laughter about the part where he was going to "heaven". heehee... mr chan didn't look too pleased. oops, i mean he doesn't look pleased at anything any day anyway.

tried going down to national jc yesterday. oh my gosh... i couldn't direct you from shaw to lucky plaza correctly, so imagine me running down from nanyang to national all by myself. lol... to start off a series of unfortunate events i could find no one to go down there with me because everyone was going out to celebrate valentine's day. gah!! all you perfect people... so i went down by myself. a rather brave act if i should say so myself. then after that, there were no seats on the bus so i sat somewhere at the back where it was rather difficult to see where the bus was going. [[ahh!!!]] so i was forcing myself to keep awake and look out and when i saw SMU, it really did keep me awake. i thought i was so lost!!! then another sign came past and it said

"johor"

ahh!!! i was really really awake at this time. then i saw hwa chong and i was never so happy to see a school before, i got down exactly one stop after it. hahaha... apparently it was the wrong stop. grrr..... then i was so lost i was comtemplating taking a cab. i decided things couldn't go much worse so i walked down the road, wondering where i would end up. and tell you the truth, i have never been so happy to see kenneth low in my whole entire life before. he was jogging [[i think]] around his school at that time [[i'm also grateful he went to hwa chong]] when he saw me he was asking

"cleo! what are you doing here?"

good question. i thought i was insane too. what he didn't know was, i was also so grateful he was there. thank God!!! he gave me directions to national so i was safe. but being in that place, i felt a little ostracised. i mean, it was all the good schools, and where was i from? nanyang. oh man... so embarassing. when i realised everyone was staring at me, i immediately took off my collar bagde. i guess me going to a good school would also be a bit weird for me, i'll bet no one in a good school has ever heard of amkss before anyways.

so anyway, after all that horrendous travelling, i guess i had a pretty good time. i think i've never really been so happy to be on the swings in a playground before, but it was really fun. i had a great time thank you very much.. [[feels young again]] and it was so farnie, because when we were swinging, it was at different speeds and timings, so i couldn't hear him when he talked and neither could he hear me. and i was saying
"i can't here you!!"
then he replied "what? i can't hear you"
then i repeated what i said and i think the whole conversation went something like that. how fruitful. but after that we sat in one of those little "houses" and pigged out on all the stuff that we got on valentine's day from our friends. muahahaha... grow fat time.

shinye's had a really good day i heard. i shall tell all of you because i know she doesn't have a blog. i was the first person to know, thank you very much =)

you see, after school, she wanted to wait for junkai's lessons to end so that they could go out together after school to celebrate shinye's birthday. but junkai kept telling her to go home and don't wait for him. lol... and i guess that made her a little pissed because she was already waiting for a while. [[you might think now that xiao ma ge is such a goon but just wait]] then shinye was like

"don't wait, don't wait lar!! hng!!"

and she went home in a huff. then at night at about 6pm, she got a call from jk and they talked a while [[i think actually jk was trying to make shinye un-pissed-off first]] before xiao ma ge told her to look out of the window. and at first she didn't want to because she was angry and wanted to ignore him. but after pleading [[and a few mushy hair-raising words i'm sure]] she looked out the window and guess what she saw??? junkai was standing somewhere opposite her block of flats with a shape of a heart on the floor made up entirely of roses..!! [[so much like romeo and juliet]] oh my gosh... you might think the romance ends there but when shinye went downstairs he gave her another bouquet of roses [[those that are pretty pink, not the horrible dark red ones]] and a teddy bear. and the teddy bear was holding a box and guess what's inside? lol.... of course, a ring!!!

my gosh... she was so excited she called me immediately when she reached home. that lucky girl!!! i wished that happened to me too. so i guess all you girls out there.... there's still hope for s'porean guys, as shinye's dear xiao ma ge set a great example for all attached guys to follow. lol...

which reminds me of sheena and me today. hahaha... you know what we did? we saw people all around us getting so many flowers and roses we decided we would not lose out and went to the booth outside the canteen to buy flowers each and we had our own exchange. hahaha... i bought her a tulip and she bought me an orange daisy, so i guess everyone's a winner yesterday. and my horrible "angel" who didn't write me a note or give me anything at all since we started playing that game in class gave me something too!!! it was a beautiful silver bracelet with tiny crosses all around =) i guess valentine's day was really nice.

and all those who wanna know what else i got, i shall show off my keychains and stuff to you tomorrow. oh yeah, yong chen gave me a four leaf clover hp chain too!!! yay... so happy. hahaha... and maybe i'll show off the two roses i also got.

anyway, it's tata for now people!! school's resumed. happy valentine's day!!!

mental notes made on Tuesday, February 15, 2005 05:21 p.m.

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valentine's day

lol... i think valentine's day wasn't exactly a very eventful day for me, but i like it anyway. =) feasted my eyes on keanu reeves playing constantine on sunday. you would have literally heard my heartbeat. that movie is so darn scary! but it was good. hahaha... me and sheena were talking about in the bio lecture and were trying desperately to muffle our laughter about the part where he was going to "heaven". heehee... mr chan didn't look too pleased. oops, i mean he doesn't look pleased at anything any day anyway.

tried going down tp national jc yesterday. oh my gosh... i couldn't direct you from shaw to lucky plaze correctly, so imagine me running down from nanyang to national all by myself. lol... to start off a series of unfortunate events i could find no one to go down there with me because everyone was going out to celebrate valentine's day. gah!! all you perfect people... so i went down by myself. a rather brave act if i should say so myself. then after that, there were no seats on the bus so i sat somewhere at the back where it was rather difficult to see where the bus was going. [[ahh!!!]] so i was forcing myself to keep awake and look out and when i saw SMU, it really did keep me away. i thought i was so lost!!! then another sign came past and it said

johor

ahh!!! i was really really awake at this time. then i saw hwa chong and i was never so happy to see a school before, i got down exactly one stop after it. hahaha... apparently it was the wrong stop. grrr..... then i was so lost i was comtemplating taking a cab. i decided things couldn't go much worse so i walked down the road, wondering where i would end up. and tell you the truth, i have never been so happy to see kenneth low in my whole entire life before. he was jogging [[i think]] around his school at that time [[i'm also grateful he went to hwa chong]] when he saw me he was asking

"cleo! what are you doing here?

good question. i thought i was insane too. what he didn't know was, i was also so grateful he was there. thank God!!! he gave me directions to national so i was safe. but being in that place, i felt a little ostracised. i mean, it was all the good schools, and where was i from? nanyang. oh man... so embarassing. when i realised everyone was staring at me, i immediately took off my collar bagde. i guess me going to a good school would also be a bit weird for me, i'll bet no one in a good school has ever heard of amkss anyways.

so anyway, after all that horrendous travelling, i guess i had a pretty good time. i think i've never really been so happy to be on the swings in a playground before, but it was really fun. i had a great time thank you very much.. [[feels young again]] and it was so farnie, because when we were swinging, it was at different speeds and timings, so i couldn't hear him when he talked and neither could he hear me. and i was saying
"i can't here you!!"
then he replied "what? i can't hear you"
then i repeated what i said and i think the whole conversation went something like that. how fruitful. but after that we sat in one of those little "houses" and pigged out on all the stuff that we got on valentine's day from our friends. muahahaha... grow fat time.

shinye's had a really good day i heard. i shall tell all of you because i know she doesn't have a blog. i was the first person to know, thank you very much =)

you see, after school, she wanted to wait for junkai's lessons to end so that they could go out together after school to celebrate shinye's birthday. but junkai kept telling her to go home and don't wait for him. lol... and i guess that made her a little pissed because she was already waiting for a while. [[you might think now that xiao ma ge is such a goon but just wait]] then shinye was like

"don't wait, don't wait lar!! hng!!"

and she went home in a huff. then at night at about 6pm, she got a call from jk and they talked a while [[i think actually jk was trying to make shinye un-pissed-off first]] before xiao ma ge told her to look out of the window. and at first she didn't want to because she was angry and wanted to ignore him. but after pleading [[and a few mushy hair-raising words i'm sure]] she looked out the window and guess what she saw??? junkai was standing somewhere opposite her block of flats with a shape of a heart on the floor made up entirely of roses..!! [[so much like romeo and juliet]] oh my gosh... you might think the romance ends there but when shinye went downstairs he gave her another bouquet of roses [[those that are pretty pink, not the horrible dark red ones]] and a teddy bear. and the teddy bear was holding a box and guess what's inside? lol.... of course, a ring!!!

my gosh... she was so excited she called me immediately when she reached home. that lucky girl!!! i wished that happened to me too. so i guess all you girls out there.... there's still hope for s'porean guys, as shinye's dear xiao ma ge set a great example for all attached guys to follow. lol...

which reminds me of sheena and me today. hahaha... you know what we did? we saw people all around us getting so many flowers and roses we decided we would not lose out and went to the booth outside the canteen to buy flowers each and we had our own exchange. hahaha... i bought her a tulip and she bought me an orange daisy, so i guess everyone's a winner yesterday. and my horrible "angel" who didn't write me a note or give me anything at all since we started playing that game in class gave me something too!!! it was a beautiful silver bracelet with tiny crosses all around =) i guess valentine's day was really nice.

and all those who wanna know what else i got, i shall show off my keychains and stuff to you tomorrow. hahaha... and maybe the two roses i also got.

anyway, it's tata for now people!! school's resumed.

mental notes made on Tuesday, February 15, 2005 05:21 p.m.

continued

so anyway, he was just plan irritating the whole way, and i was so tired. we went out from about 11am to about 6pm. then i went to meet dawnie at suntec til about 9pm ++. eeee!!!!!!!!!! so tired that day. and i had sch the next day. haikz...

so anyway, nazgul rocks!!! phoenix won the cheer competitions!! i'm so excited. i was so nervous on stage, i was wondering if anyone thought we were being really really lame on stage but apparently, we're good. hahaha... okay i shall stop being egotistical and get down to more serious business.

shinye yixuan and i went back to amkss on tuesday. heehee... we were sneaking out of school because the celebrations weren't over and we were afraid the amkss celebrations would be done soon and all the teachers would have left. so we rushed to change out of our costumes and when we were about to leave.... evon came!! [[evon = head of cheerleading]]

"where are you all going? the finale isn't over yet!!"

and my instincts came and took over. i went... "hnnnnggggg...... humph!!!"

and after my little bit of whining her eyes grew bigger and she walked over to comfort me and said "okay okay, go lar go lar." muahahaha... and as usual, the school didn't open the side gate until we walked around the whole world to the front gate, so maybe we could have stayed for the finale but really, i didn't mind going off early. haha...

met up with the guys back in amkss. edwin chong got a new girlfriend again!!! aiyoh... and again we told him not to flirt around and again we saw him at junction 8 with hazel. he said it was coincidental. what can i say... our good advice fell on deaf ears. nothing much new around our secondary school i guess.. and mrs chung is still as kaypoh and up to date. hahaha...

AND I'M SO EXCITED!! FINALLY CHIHOE CALLED ME AGAIN!!! heehee... and i immediately asked if i were the first person he called. lol... i'm so pleased. even if i didn't pick up, i'm glad he tried to call me first. hahaha... it was good to talk to him again. i don't him to become those kinda strangers where we walk on the road and see each other and have awkward moments trying to figure out if we should say "hi" or pretend to be blind and walk past. you know, yesterday, everytime he called i wouldn't hear it and it'd be a missed call. then after that i would hold on to my phone in case he called again but he wouldn't so after a while i'd put my phone back into my bag and he'd give me some more missed calls. =( this is unfair. but at least i got to talk to him this morning. heeheehee.... how exciting.

got to see amanda and cheryl on the webcam too!! we only saw more of uncle eddy and auntie sally the day before. amanda and cheryl seems to be getting prettier all the time!! it must be the food in new zealand. and guess what? everyone says i'm growing shorter!!! now i'm the shortest in the family and everyone's just suaning me. i felt really sad to tell you guys the truth, never have i experienced people laughing at me to tell me i'm short. or should i say shortest. [[sob sob]] oh man why should i say this now, i've just dampened my own festive mood. sigh... i guess i should go now. homework calls, have school tomorrow.

mental notes made on Thursday, February 10, 2005 09:49 a.m.

it's all his fault

that's right folks, it's all junkai's fault. humph... oh yeah, now i'm in school. aiyoh so tired.... [[reminds self = all his fault]] i knew he was horrible ever since the first time i met him. seriously... love is blind, poor shinye.

anyway, i think i'll have to go off soon. hahaha... maybe you're right manda, this isn't an update. but a short update is still an update. so i'm still updating. hahaha..

okay i shall tell you a bit about yesterday to wet your appetitie. then i guess you guys would all be wondering more about what happened because i said that. muahahaha... then after that i'll say i have to go for my cheerleading. heehee.. just joking. won't leave you guys hanging there wanting to know more.

so anyway, yesterday junkai was waiting online for his "prey". you see, he hasn't bought any new year clothes [[i think except the one shinye choose for him. that one with the monkey's butt on fire. ]] so he was waiting for someone to go out with him to buy something. and i tell you, there's something seriously wrong with that person. you know, he doesn't choose his own clothes?? he waits for me to choose something for him, then goes to try it, then comes back and waits for me to give him a thumbs up or down. wad... i'll bet if i choose him an incredibly gay shirt he would have bought it too.

i shall continue this some other time. haha.. cuz my hands are sweaty in the cold library and i wanna read chihoe's email and the font of this computer is extremely small!! i'll bet the school did this just to keep ppl from blogging during sch hours. or maybe, just to prevent the kaypoh ppl behind me from reading everything. haha...

mental notes made on Monday, February 7, 2005 03:34 p.m.

i feel faint

i think... i shouldn't do pe tomorrow. i feel dizzy and giddy and the world is spinning and i feel like i'm floating everytime i walk. this is bad. something's wrong, its a bit scary sometimes.

anyway, i came home today and found a little baby bird all fluffy with down feathers today =) [[tubby little cubby all stuffed with fluff]] my dad told my mom he saw it at the bird shop and thought it was so cute he couldn't "tahan" and had to buy it. hahaha.... and guess what? he bought a love bird!! and he knows they are the fiercest of all pet birds. they bite like anything and never let go and it's really painful. yucks... so now when this gentle little baby bird grows old i guess we all know now what he's gonna be like. only my dad can handle adult love birds... lol... [[thicker skin]]

anyway i think i can't type too much today, getting really really giddy now. and i have to go do some math homework just in case my teacher expects us to finish it even if he hasn't taught us finish.

oh yeah do you know, some of the seniors are getting quite irritated with us J1s because they say we study too much. hahaha... you see, nanyang is supposed to be a fun jc, which it is, but the thing is, the J1s are hardworking people and we have to be good students and study even if we play. i guess the J2s are scared that we are spoiling their image by being too studious. hahaha... right... i don't see why it's no good to study. besides, chemistry has never been a strong point for me, reading it a bit more is a good thing =)

went with sheena to junction 8 today before her squash because she wanted to buy new year clothes. hahaha... i tried stuff but didn't buy anything, shall save a bit of cash i guess. sheena bought a new suit, top and bottom. i guess we have different taste. a pink skirt...??? nah.......... gross. that's just a bad colour to get. well anyway, i think my mom wants to go out shopping this saturday after i go get myself fitted with a new pair of specs. yay... my specs are really old. i think i need a new one if not i'll have to wear contacts everyday to school just so that i can see what's on the projection screens. hope we don't miss the youth service at coos. time to take holy communion =) i like the start of the month. and btw,
youth service rocks!! literally
okay i think i have to brush my teeth and lie down on my bed now, the earth is starting to "move under my feet". bleargh....

mental notes made on Thursday, February 3, 2005 08:38 p.m.

updates

okay since all you wonderful guys are asking for an update [[or more updates]] i shall let all of you know everything that's happening. or at least most of what's happening. at least what i know lar. okay i'm being long-winded. i shall go bathe now and be back so that i can type out my whole dear life long story of life in nanyang jc.

okay. hahaha... so anyway, i shall start with today, because that's the reason why i needed to bathe so badly.... lol... i'm glad you couldn't smell me over the internet. we're practising for our performance during chinese new year next tuesday!! it's coming so soon!! we're doing a cheer routine and it reminds me so much of that greenhouse cheer thingie that we had to come up with last minute the last year. [[jolts memories and pokes at ppl who stare blankly at my blog and don't remember]] it's so fun!! and i have to tel you guys, the pom poms that we are using are silver and shiny because.... [[drumroll]] they are made of aluminium foil!! and they hurt. hahaha...

i'm also getting used to the difference from sec sch. i mean, mainly the girls from girl schools. you know... it's really difference, some of them. that day, when some girly stuff happened, i asked her for help and she exclaimed in the kind of voice which ppl use for presentations

"ohhh!!!!! you need pad arh??"

then after that she said "oh he's behind you"

and i turned around and i saw not just one "he" but many "he"s. a whole herd of "he"S!!so embarassing... but i guess she'll have to erm, change a little because now we're in a mixed school and stuff and it's different. hahaha...

so anyway i have go now because someone is on the phone and it's hard to talk and type. humph... cya guys.

mental notes made on Wednesday, February 2, 2005 09:13 p.m.

if i ain't got you

Some people live for the fortune
Some people live just for the fame
Some people live for the power, yeah
Some people live just to play the game
Some people think that the physical things
Define what’s within
And I’ve been there before
But that life’s a bore
So full of the superficial

Some people want it all
But I don’t want nothing at all
If it ain’t you baby
If I ain’t got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain’t got you, Yeah

Some people search for a fountain
That promises forever young
Some people need three dozen roses
And that’s the only way to prove you love him
Hand me the world on a silver platter
And what good would it be
With no one to share
with no one who truly cares for me
If I ain’t got you with me baby
See, nothing in this whole wide world don’t mean a thing
If I ain’t got you with me baby

mental notes made on Friday, January 28, 2005 06:01 p.m.

photos

oh yeah, and here's the pictures [[some]] from our perth trip. click here to view them

mental notes made on Saturday, January 1, 2005 11:30 a.m.

happy new year!!

yesterday we went to watch meet the fockers with.. erm... everyone that melissa mentioned in her blog. haha.. i'm too lazy to type. anyway, the thing is, mel lost her wallet, so since the movie was nc16 she was afraid that if she told them she lost her ic they would not believe her. so i lent her mine. haha.. i think we look quite alike anyway, then i used my ezlink card. but in the end they didn't check our ics... so... hahaha... but it was funny.

at night we went to uncle david's house to have a celebration. it was so fun!! we were playing the xbox, watching shrek 2 [[again again again]] and ruling the pool table and stuff. playing pool was so fun!!! especially with uncle david. he kept making jokes. and kevin kept giving us free balls. hahaha... judith and joshua are growing up and joel is still so cute!!! lol... and abraham... well... the little kid pee-d on the floor. and aparrently no one told me, dawn and timothy that we all stepped on it. my poor converse slippers!!! oh well, pee is natural. yuck yuck..

we stayed to count down and stuff and by the time i could call sx i was so sleepy i think i could have slept holding the phone. thinking back... i think this was a pretty good year, despite the tsunami. God has blessed me with decent results for my o levels and i could get into a jc... i also had so much fun with my sec sch pals... like during the prom and chalet at the end of the year... somehow thinking about what happened in s'pore, i just don't want 2004 to end. going to new schools and getting into new nvironments, that seems really scary to me. plus i'm an introverted person, really shy around ppl i don't know. i guess i'll just have to trust God in the new year ahead. i suddenly thought of the michael jackson song "heal the world". i really hope no natural disasters will rock our earth in 2005..

heal the world
make it a better place
for you and for me and the entire human race
there are people dying
if you care enough for the living
make it a better place for you and for me

mental notes made on Saturday, January 1, 2005 10:20 a.m.

part 2 of the trip to perth

and now i shall continue....

25 Dec [[christmas day!!]]
today we took a grayline tour to see the pinnacle desert, ride in the desert in lancelin and visit a wildlife park. first off, we took this bus called the Desert Storm which is a modified school bus imported from America. the driver, Glenn, modified it to have springs in the seats and extra big wheels so we can ride on the sand dunes. well anyway, the springs could take different weights, and the springs which can take light weight people are right at the front, so guess what? me and dawn were in the front two seats!! it was so scary!!! the thing is, the sand is never even, so wherever we went, me and dawn would be bouncing up and down. Glenn would also play some rock music so it would really look like everyone is bobbing their heads to the music. when i turned around [[while bobbing up and down]] the scene behind was actually quite funny.. hahaha... and Glenn is crazy!! he drives us down the sand dunes that could be two storeys high without holding the steering wheel! it was really like a rollercoaster, going up up up a steep dune then sliding down it really fast. there was once when Glenn drove us to the top of a hill [[obviously made only of sand]] and went reverse down it! everyone was screaming!! really... it was a rollercoaster ride. then we stopped at the foot of another dune hill and he told us it was time to go sand boarding! not for those who don't know what it is, it's actually just sitting on a board and sliding down the sand dune, but really really fast. all of us were looking at the hill and just kinda thinking this is really suicide, when Glenn took my hand and said i'll go first down the hill. i was so shocked!! i was like, "what? why?" while running to keep up with him so that my arm would not be dislocated. he told me there were so many tourists [[28 i think]] that he had to pick on someone and it might as well be the prettiest around : ) okay, so i went first. hahaha... and it was so high up! when i'm actually up there i could see how steep the slope is and really, i have a fear of heights. but he told me how to sit in the board thingie and how to hold my hands to the side and when he saw that i did it all corectly he just pushed the board off the hill! i was quite freaked, kinda felt like i was falling down or something but it was really fast and really fun. heehee... the board tumbled at the end of the hill but the sand was like powder and it really didn't hurt at all. so cool! on our way back out of the desert we saw a luxury coach trying to drive through the desert. lol... too bad they didn't ride in our monster bus, they got stuck at the bottom of a sand hill in a smaller sand dune and we could see [[even though again we were bobbing up and down]] the driver desperately trying to drive out. lol... Glenn waved and rode away. muahahaha... then we visited the pinnacles. [[apparently keith was supposed to be around too but again i didn't see him]] the winds were so strong there. mind you, it's called the pinnacle desert so the sand was flying everywhere!! and this sand isn't like the one at lancelin, it's made of bigger grains! the sand was flying everywhere in the 38 degrees heat, and i mean everywhere. kept going into our eyes and when it does all of us starts squinting and we really can't see where we're going so we just follow the person in front. lol... my dad was saying that the 5 of us were the blind leading the blind. hahaha... and when the wind blows the sand around, it always hits your legs and it gets really painful, like millions of needles poking into your skin from all around you. ouch... i kinda regretted wearing board shorts. oh and btw, sand and contact lenses, don't really go together. phew... oh yeah, and we also visited a beach where the sand was so soft and the water was icy cold and we just wanted to jump in because it was so hot!!! the beach was beautiful, the water was so clear... wow... amazing. woke up in the middle of the night after all the activities because of a gang fight below our apartments! it was noisy and scary with people shouting away down stairs. mom thinks the police were called because she heard cars honking and stuff. freakish! but overall, it was a really interesting and fun day ; )

26 Dec
we went to frementle today and shopped first of all in the e-shed markets. there were so many things there that i wanted to buy for the people back home... i regret not buying all of it. well, my allowance isn't a lot anyway. we ate lunch at cisirello's and it was so good! auntie barbara was right, it's really super fish and chips. sigh... in the end the only souvenirs i bought were very little. [[what did i say about regrets?]] so today was really just shopping shopping shopping. mom and dad spent more than $100 buying gifts for ppl back home. i wish i had a bigger allowance.. hahaha... that will come next year. at night we ate at a posh chinese resturant. we ate snow crabs and lobsters that were even bigger than my head and had legs thicker than my fingers! it was paradise.... ate a lot a lot because we ordered such huge seafood for just 5 people. but it was great and worth it. the bill came up to $229. lol.... but the size of the seafood you wouldn't believe. HUGE!! today wasn't a very good day, me and dawn kept getting scolded by mom dad and roy because of small little things. for one, we got scolded because i was trying to get a grain of sand out of dawn's eye. why? i have no idea, but i guess roy found it irritating. then dad told me to direct him to riverside road to get to king's park so i did but in the end he realised he told me to direct him to the wrong road and again i got scolded by roy, dad and mom. then dawn asked mom some questions when we were eating at the resturant about the food and she got scolded really badly. mom scolded me too :( dunno why either. at that point dawn was so sad because we kept getting scolded that she cried in the resturant. i can't blame her, i felt really bad too.

27 Dec
it was 39 degress outside today! steaming hot! me and dawn woke up at 9am to an empty house and thought that everyone went to the golf course without telling us or waiting for us. but they came home at about 11am and told us that they left early to bring roy to the clinic. poor boy is sick really bad with the flu and stuff because of that fishball i think. plus the heat i guess things got quite bad. we didn't do much today, just went with mom and dad to the golf course and saw some kangeroos.. finished the wine today : ) the one that i tasted and the lady didn't let me taste anymore at margaret river.

28 Dec
woke up very early because dad wanted to buy some shirts from the golf course for the ppl back home. i wanted to go to frementle again to buy stuff for the ppl back home too!! where's the equality in the world?? because he's the driver we drove 35km to Araluen to buy his shirts instead of going 16km to frementle where i can buy my stuff for my friends. :( but it was okay, didn't expect i could go back there anyway. sigh... my shopping...!! [[wails]] i shall shop in s'pore then, before school starts in jan. saw keith again at the airport. we took the same flight back to s'pore and he was sitting a few seats behind me. didn't go talk to him though, because there was lotsa turbulance and plus our parents are all around and it just seems a little weird. lol... but it's so qiao that we were in perth for the exact same period of time. haha.. so i guess this ends the trip, some good points and some bad.. but it was fun : )

so now, i can finally go read other ppl's blogs to find out what i missed out so far. lol... i need to update myself. cya!

mental notes made on Wednesday, December 29, 2004 09:16 a.m.

i'm back...

i'm sure you guys missed me... heeheehee... and my blogging... lol... so i shall be nice and kind and blog down the trip to perth for you guys. all the days we were there. mind you i just got back today so you better be grateful. lol...

21 Dec 2am
was at the airport 3 hours before our flight!! i dunno why we were so early but it's a good thing anyway. hahaha... rushed for the free phones inside the terminal since there was so much time and rang joyce and sx. in the end, talked to sx til there was a last call for our flight!! rushed like crazy to the gate only to find a long queue... right... last call... how smart. didn't sleep on the plane at all, it was a short flight after all. lol... wonder how i kept awake all the way.. i ususally get airsick then puke then sleep the rest of the way but i guess the flight was too short for my "usual routine". hahaha... so anyway, i saw keith at perth! we were both at customs or something waiting to get into perth from the airport and we were in the same queue. so funny... and at 2am!! cool... took a cab to criterion hotel. yucks.... the horror begins.

21 Dec morning
tried going down hay street today to satisfy my shopping craves but everything was out of budget. i was so sad... getting really deprived. my bro was sick with a stomach upset after eating uncooked fishballs again. this happened last year when we went to nz! talk about deja vu... hahaha... we went to play golf with mom and dad today at Araluen and almost met a car accident!! dawn put the buggy in the wrong gear and we went backwards when i just jammed my foot down into the accelerator unknowingly. [[yes, for all for are disappointed, i'm alive and well and typing this entry. lol.... : ) ]] shock of our lives... i guess mom would never want to sit in a buggy driven by me and dawn again. hahahaha... but it was fun, the adrenaline rush from a near death experience. and there were kangeroos all around the golf course!! amazingly they aren't afraid of the golf balls. hahaha... i think because we were screaming so loudly on the course maybe there would be a decrease in the population of kangers because we scared some of the half to death. lol... me and dawn prayed hard before we went to bed that we would move out of criterion hotel. will explain later.

22 Dec
went to king's park today and the bell tower in perth CBD. the views were magnificent!!! swan lake looked really beautiful, amazing how God created such a beauty.. took a lot of pictures, i shall put it up so you guys can see another time. i think the camera also needs a rest, not only me. heehee... okay, just joking. sadly, me shopping needs were only fulfiled by mr roy chen who bought a pair for $100 jeans from jean west on hay street. i can only watch :( got news we'll be able to move out of criterion into an apartment!! you see, in the previous apartment, the walls were so thin we would be woken up by someone else's alarm clock in the morning. not only that, there was no drinking water + no kettle and we had to keep buying mineral water. furthermore, we were staying in 3 separate rooms, so we would have to meet in mom's room every night to brush teeth and change into our pj's and walk back to our room to sleep. plus! i would have to share a queen sized bed with dawn and she takes up all the blankets and i'd be freezing the whole night. humph....

23 Dec
moved to the kingstone on hay apartments!! i have my own bed!! i'm so hapy!!! hahaha... so anyway, we walked on the longest jetty today at busselton. apparently keith was here too but i didn't see him. the planks on the jetty were rotting and shaking and i kept thinking they might fall out at anytime. there were holes in some of them i was scared my leg might get stuck. you could see the see from beneath you and there were cases of ppl dying of shark attacks in aussie so you can imagine how scared i was. lol... plus one side of it didn't have railings!!! you could just walk and jump into the water!! and it's deep okay... the jetty also got blown away by hurricanes before! i'm glad it wasn't raining. ate at a resturant near the jetty. it's supposed to be quite posh and stuff... but the thing is, halfway through my meal i looked down and there was this bright green slimey little caterpilla crawling on my fish and chips!!!!! EEE!!! i was quite grossed out, didn't have much of an appetite after seeing that thing, though dad switched plates with me. went to margaret river were we [[me and dawn]] expected to see this beautiful river but guess what? there was no river.. apparently it's supposed to be a town. 3 and a half hours drive from perth to see a town! and the shopping was ex :( i'm so sad... accompanied mom to wine tasting while dad and roy slept in the car after the tiring drive. when the lady at the counter found out i was only 16 she didn't let me taste anymore :( and i only had 1 glass. heehee... oh well, at least mom bought a bottle so we could drink in the apartments : )

24 Dec
me and dawn waited for mom, dad and roy to return home from the golf course this morning.. they took such a long time!! we watched tv til we were so bored we decided to walk downstairs to see the pool but it was so tiny! i think if we swam 2 laps we would reach the other end of the pool. lol... and there was no drainage system that the water can flow out from so the sides of the pool [[carpeted]] were so wet and soggy that when you walked you could here the squish sounds. eeks... at least my unsatiable thrist for shopping was quenched a little when we went to visit the factory outlets today. yay... but everything closed at about 6pm and we started when it was close to 5pm so it was not much of a kick. at least i bought some footwear : ) happiness... now me dawn and mom don't need to share a pair of sandals anymore.

i guess i should leave the rest of the days for tomorrow... haha... it's getting late. shall keep you guys in "suspense" : )

mental notes made on Tuesday, December 28, 2004 09:48 p.m.

yr 2000 pri 6 class gathering!!!

ahhhh!!!! i had a pri 6 class gathering at east coast yesterday!! it was so fun!! yay : ) hahaha... raudha thinks not many ppl came... well yeah, some ppl didn't come but i think it's good enough. hahaha.. i had such a fun time. yanshuang and raudha organised it i think. i know raudha booked the bbq pit [[yes, nearest to the toilet and we're so grateful]] and yanshuang sort of paid for the food stuffs first. and everyone who came and stepped into our pit area got their first greeting from yanshuang.. "pay $5!!!" hahaha... so funny... i guess we didn't change too much..

we mostly played card games, though alvin bought a ball and the guys kicked it around for a while. it was really so much fun. but i can't tell everything now, i'm going off soon... busy busy busy!! i shall update somemore when i'm back : )

mental notes made on Monday, December 20, 2004 11:37 a.m.

christmas in another country

it seems like i spent the past few christmas's out of country. i feel sad. i miss going to church on christmas to watch the musicals. it's always so pretty and fun and the stage in church will be all decorated and pastor derek will speak... i miss all that. and of course i'll miss my friends... i don't know if i have time to send cards this year. :( heard this song on the radio... remember we were trying to sing it joycey??? heehee.... when we saw the christmas light up on tuesday night. found the lyrics : )

Last night I took a walk in the snow.
Couples holding hands, places to go
Seems like everyone but me is in love.
Santa can you hear me

I signed my letter that I sealed with a kiss
I sent it off, it just said this
I know exactly what I want this year.
Santa can you hear me.

I want my baby
I want someone to love me someone to hold me.
Maybe.. he'll be all my own in a big red bow

Santa can you hear me?
I have been so good this year
And all I want is one thing
Tell me my true love is near
He's all I want, just for me underneath my christmas tree
I'll be waiting here.
Santa thats my only wish this year.

Christmas Eve I just can't sleep
Would I be wrong for taking a peek?
Cause I heard that your coming to town
Santa can you hear me?

Really hope that your on your way
With something special for me in your sleigh
Ohh please make my wish come true
Santa can you hear me

I want my baby
I want someone to love me someone to hold me
Maybe.. we'll be all the love under the mistletoe

[[chorus]]

I hope my letter reaches you in time
Bring me love can call all mine
cause I have been so good this year.

Can't be alone under the mistletoe
He's all want and a big red bow
Santa can you hear me (hear me?)
I have been so good this year
And all i want is one thing
Tell me my true love is near
He's all I want, just for me, underneath my christmas tree
I'll be waiting here
santa thats my only wish this year

mental notes made on Friday, December 17, 2004 11:41 p.m.

saturday...

ah ma is coming to stay at our house!! she's gonna come today and sleep in my room and i haven't packed up my table yet. at least i know she won't be climbing up into my bunk. poor dawnie... she has to give up her bed. we're moving upstairs to sleep for the week. not to be disrespectful, but ah ma doesn't bathe and she sheds dead skin so i'm kinda sad she's taking my room. :(

anyway, yesterday we went shopping. yay! parents bought roy a christmas present, and mom tried to insist that the shirts she bought me and dawn were our christmas presents too. lol... oh yeah, and i hope i can get better soon. you know i went to see the doctor again because i'm still coughing even after i've taken that horrible black sticky cough syrup for a week. i've finished all the medication and still i'm as sick as before. yuckies... mom made me go see the doctor again. i hope it's nothing serious... i really want to get better soon. then i can go ice skating [[wink wink]] and go out to celebrate jiayu's birthday and everything.

btw, i can't believe roy is playing maple story. i'll bet it's just another fad, like gunbound. hahaha... if you didn't know, maple story is like playing super mario where the person walks around and hits mushrooms and snails. i think he feels young again. hahaha...

oh yeah, and me and dawn borrowed vcds from video ezy and apparently we haven't watched them and we have to return them on thursday. i wonder if ah ma will wake up if we play the vcds... i don't think she'll even sleep well because the birds in the backyard get kinda noisy in the morning. oh well... oh no! i haven't packed the room. right right right... i shall go now.

mental notes made on Sunday, December 5, 2004 11:37 a.m.

archived!!

yay i've finally archived... hahaha... so i'll put the link for the pictures up again. click here to view them..

mental notes made on Saturday, December 4, 2004 12:01 p.m.